sexxeh thang

2006-11-26T02:37:00.000-08:00

i have decided to move to LJ. please re-link me guys!
http://grandiloquences.livejournal.com

2006-11-17T07:55:00.000-08:00

I ABSOLUTELY HATE IT WHEN I AM BEING MISUNDERSTOOD LIKE THAT!

2006-11-10T09:19:00.000-08:00

i have finally decided to blog, after hesitating for a moment.

so, assignment 1 was finally over today. but thats not the end. assignment 2 came rushing soon after! how wonderdful. i thought presentation went well today, other then the fact that i was presenting in shorts and sandals? i think i was so not formal. but who cares.

i havent had my fair share of sleep ever since school started! i have so many things to do! my daily journal is lagging by 3 days already. you tell me how? my visual journal, even worst. havent even start! thats 10 days of drawings. you tell me, how to pass like that? i think i better get my butt down to do something during the weekend.

i have been coming to school so early these few days just to do assignment 1. once again, i say, i need my beauty sleep. my eye bags are showing.

oh, did i mention, i saw geraldine leong on thursday before training! (: i am so so so so so happy. i hope to bump into her more often. TEEHEE.

aiyah, i think in whole, I LOVE THIS WEEK, even though school work is killing me. many many happy things, i like. :D

2006-11-08T09:27:00.000-08:00

work is piling and i am not doing anything! thats terrible! i have alot visual journals to do and and i have assignment 1 due on friday! i have barely started on anything yet! i am so so screwed. although i like the subject i am taking now, i dont seem to be doing my work. why? i realised i have grown lazier ever since the holidays! oh no..

anyway, marli has finalised the team for IPs and U-21. so from thursday onwards we'll be training with out own team mates. i'm going to work hard for U-21. (:

while watching the NP vs RP match today, i saw geraldine! it was nice seeing her after such a long time! i miss that girl so much. we shall do some catching up soon yes?

my cramps and headache is killing me! it has been going on like this since yesterday! and and today it got really bad! so bad that i was rolling around my bad! sometimes i wish i was a man..

2006-11-04T07:02:00.000-08:00

perhaps i was too harsh in my previous entry. I thought what I did was selfish. I wrote that entry without thinking twice how the person would have felt after she read it. i'm sorry.

school's been fine so far. I;m taking Architecture Design Theory now. Well, I liked the first few lessons when derek talked about the Ancient Period. I've always prefered the Olden days history compared to recent ones anway. Class have been ending quite early. say about 45 minutes lecture and then we are released? I think its a waste of time going to school for just a mere 45 minutes lesson then go home. How dumb.

So last night, we went to celebrate Tim's birthday at Spizza. Anyway, Happy belated birthday! (: Well almost everyone was there, except for the few that was missing. Clar, wilson, ashraf and Denise. Clarclar, if you happen to read this, i just want you to know i miss you already! so come visit me at tp soon ok? then you can have your grilled fish! HEEHEE.

There a few things that will be due on tuesday. and the best thing is, I have yet to start on any of it. How wonderful!

aku memilih, untuk diam di sepi ku.

2006-10-29T04:10:00.000-08:00

this is a picture ripped from izyan's blog. haha. it was taken during the guy's game against RP. and of course it was this game that a fight broke out. and oh yes, the FOFs came down to watch the match too.

school is starting for me tommorow. I cant wait actually. I cant wait to see the kind of classmates I will get. Haha. So school vacation will be ending real soon. Which means, no more waking up late( actually still possible since my class doesnt start only till 3.) It also means more homework and more sleepless nights.

Oh did I mention? Training was resumed on thursday and it was a killer for me since i havent been training or a good 3 weeks. I swear fitness was a killer! I almost died and the best thing is, my coach said that was only the beginning. How great. Anyway we also had our IPs, U-21 and U-17 selection that day.

Looks like I'll be spending more time with the seniors since the U-21 team is training with the IPs team.

2006-10-27T05:53:00.000-07:00

here are some random pics for the NTL. alright, i am off for dinner with the gramps. will update more later.

2006-10-22T22:19:00.000-07:00

LIFE'S A BIG BITCH!

2006-10-21T02:46:00.000-07:00

I've always had this theory that when someone is upset they should go straight to bed. Even if it means crying to sleep. Because to me, sleeping is the only time that you cant really put yur mind at ease. forget about all the troubles in the world. I know, by doing that, I'm leaving in self denial because at the end of the day, when you wake, its still going to be the same trouble that faces you. But at least I get to run away for a few good hours. right?

I went to bed last night hoping that things will change this morning. But come on, who was I to kid?

2006-10-20T19:23:00.000-07:00

the only thing that keeps me sane, other then sleeping.

:( i'm in need of a happy pill.

saturdays never seem this dull.

2006-10-17T04:40:00.000-07:00

above are some of the photos taken over the holidays. school is starting next monday. i am looking forward to it but at the same time dreading it. the only reason i am looking forward t school is cause i can finally gossip with eunice can. haha. and i cant wait to see her new cut hair. so exciting. and one reason why i dont want to go t school is because my hair is a plain disaster. After 2 weeks, i am still infact very ashamed by it. so annoying. i look uglier now.

something i must bring up. i stumbled upn a blog recently. and the content of it pissed me off quite abit. i am not going to mention names. its not that i know her personally or anything. ask me why i read her blog? oh cause everyone is reading it. anyway she was cursing indonesian in general. why? because of the forest fire. i am ok she just casually says," oh stupid indonesians" or something. she just had to go on saying" fuck ALL those indonesians. because of them, we are affected by the haze" obviously, this blogger here does not have a brain. its just a minority of them who decides to burn down the trees. its not like the whole population of the country came together to start the fire or something. bitch you know. she shouldnt have generalise them in a whole. ok maybe i am affected because, i am an indonesian.

i have work tommorow. full shift. what a bum bum.

2006-10-10T04:42:00.000-07:00

The only thing that is stopping me away from taking my passport and fleeing back to Singapore is my auntie's wedding. I just dont understand my mother. The wedding is on Saturday and she wants us home on Monday. Thats so selfish of her. She is depriving me of my boyfriend, friends and training time. I'll be missing training twice this week, and I am not quite happy about it.

So maybe shopping is the only thing that can keep me sane right now. But no, daddy refuse to give me money to go shopping. Ok, so he did give me money. But its not enough to buy all the things I have set my eyes on. Mommy was being nice though. I went to eat lunch with her today and and I tried my luck by luring her into this shop. I didnt expect her to get that bag I wanted cause the price is quite unreasonable. But, I think she was in a good mood. She didnt even question how much the price was. So that made me happy for awhile.

I cant wait for Sunday night. I will be home by then. (:

2006-10-02T08:41:00.000-07:00

I had the best time of my life on my eighteenth birthday. (: really. baby bought me a very beautiful dress. even mommy was surprised he could pick out a dress. and so, here is my dress.

and i started my day by celebrating my birthday with my family. its really sad daddy cannot be here. and so we went to angus house to have my birthday lunch. (: yummylicious. and then, after lunch we went to get my present. mommy gave a very nice gift as well. something i have always wanted. hee

and so after that i went to meet baby and brian. we waked around town and soon after manda came. we had dinner at arab street. and yes, i tried seesha. oh, ryan and vic joined us for dinner too.

i wish yesterday didnt have to end. it was so perfect.

i want to thank all those who remembered. (: i really appreciate the messages/ testimonials. i love you guys so much. and thank you to all those who got me presents. you know i can never thank you enough. i have the sweetest friends. and i cant wait for dinner with geraldine this sat. she said, her treat. haha.

baby, thank you for everything yesterday. i really appreciate all that you've done. i love you. (:

2006-09-28T21:05:00.000-07:00

if you guys must know i am quite affected by the fact that Jonathan Leong did not get crown Singapore Idol. He is the only reason I keep my tv on every wednesday at 8. He's the only one that makes me go gaga when he came visiting TP.

I must say for the pass 8 weeks, I have had the best time of my life leading a team. Never before was I given the chance to lead a team. I am glad i was given the chance and i hope, I did what was expected of me. I love my TPbabies/Team Temasek. (: Last game tommorow. I cant wait. My hands and leg already so itchy after last saturday's game. Woolala. I cant wait to get back. And of course, I cannot just do this alone, I need my team.

Aini and Manda, please get well soon for tmr's game. We need you in the team. Our last game, and I really hope best effort is given.

School might start next week. But if i dont get into any class, I have got a month to rot. How fun and exciting. I dont want. I rather go to school. So please, email me by tonight or Sunday.

I need to go hunting for dress for my auntie's wedding. So where can I find a dress that dont make me look fat? I feel like getting a polka dot dress. I dont know. I just have something for balls these few days. Haha. I am not looking forward to family photo. Really. I dread family photos when I am this fat. I need to lose some weight.

Sunday, my big day, legally 18 (HEEHEE)

2006-09-23T08:44:00.000-07:00

i'm having a mixed feeling. i dont exactly know whether to place today's game as a sad or happy one. until now, after much consoling from friends, i still cannot get over today's match. it was so near yet so far for me. everyone was saying i should be happy enough that i managed to break through blacks. no doubt i am really happy that i broke through blacks, but what upsets me is that, i did not score a try not because i got touched, but because of myself. i was one step away from the trial area, and i had to screw it by tripping on my own leg. how dumb can i get? i felt as if i deprived my team of that one try. the least i could do after that stupid mistake was to get my feet back on the ground and try to break through again and score this time. but no, i chose to lay at where i fell and start wallowing in self pity. why oh why did i do that? and to think that its my last game for NTL. i guess its how i choose to see it. i should be happy i broke through blacks. but sad that i screwed up my only chance of try.

like marli said, everyone has to learn from their mistake and i swear that will be the last time i ever commit such a stupid crime anymore. i still cant believe i tripped on MY OWN LEG when i was just one step from the trial area! OH MY GOD! how stupid can i get. i ran as fast as my feet can carry me after i broke through, and just as i thought i can do it, and was about to dive, i tripped. oh god, please save me. i am the dumbest kid on planet earth.

2006-09-20T22:31:00.000-07:00

i realise i do miss my secondaru school friends. whether or not we used to be close or not. i just miss the company. i realise i have been so caught up with poly life and school work that i hardly can find time to catch up with old friends. and sad thing is, i met gerladine leong at the bus stop and she can barely recognise me! thats bad! my own bestfriend cannot remember me!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR RACHEL! (: you are definitely missed!

i relaise human beings are a bunch of ungrateful creatures. we are so busy complaining at the things we do not have that we forget to reflect and realise that there are many things that we have that many others dont. why cant we be satisfied with what we have? we never stop asking for more. i did try being gratefu for what i have, but its hard not to ask for more. haha.

school holiday is finally here. i hope to take this time to catch up with old mates. i miss them so much. and and i really hope i will still be in the same class as my old classmates since all of us at the time being have no class to go to and will be signing up for the same class next wednesday.

alright, i am off to meet the boyfriend and then training in the evening. (:

2006-09-19T19:28:00.000-07:00

i conclude my classmates and i are a bunch of kiasu people. cds registration do not start till 10 but we were already in the cadlab by 9. thats how kiasu we are. but i guess this is because we have learnt our lesson. we were not posted to any class for our next block because our registration came in too late. and so we MIGHT be free for the next month. but cannot la. we have to have lesson or else we are going to die for block 7. the final registration for block 6 is next wednesday. so, my classmates and i are going to pitch a tent in school on tuesday and wait for 10 o'clock on wednesday. hahaha. anyway the subject that i want to take doesnt have vacancy anymore. so i have no ohter choice but to choose subject that has more vacancies. this sucks.

and so, i learn, it does not kill to be a typical singaporean.

and since it takes only 5 minutes to submit our cds registration, we have another 2 more hours to waste before our final submission at 12. after today, i can jump, fly, scream, shout and nobody will care. because i have holidays till 2nd oct. hooray hooray. finally! my long awaited holiday is finally here. its about time anyway.

my 18th is coming. i dont know. i have mixed feeling about it. i am happy but at the same time, not looking forward to it. =/ i wonder why. another year has pass for me! so fast! its like next sunday. i still remembered clearly what happened on my 17th birthday. 16th one also still so fresh in my mind. but also maybe because i can never forget my supposedly sweet 16.

//i thank god for you.

2006-09-16T19:56:00.000-07:00

so as everyone can see, i have been so lazy to blog. maybe also because i am so busy in school, i come home tired and therefore i have no mood to blog. so today is a sunday and i've decided to do something productive, update about my life. so, many many things have been happening recently. mostly happy things. so its all good so far. (: i have been nusy painting dustbins. and my holiday was suppose to start yesterday but because i havent finished my project, u have to come back to school to complete it. submission is on wednesday. so holiday officially starts only then.

ntl yesterday and it was so far my happiest moment. we scored against WANTOKS! woo! and our hero will be aini. hahaha. i am so happy. thinking about it makes me smile. i am so happy my team is really bonding well and growing stronger each week. i am proud of all those who were being consistent. and last game for us next week. against blacks. i hope we continue improving and give in our all for the very last game! (:

and dyan, if you happen to read this, i want to tell you i miss you so much! meet up soon during my 1 week holiday ok? and leong shiok kheng, when are you going to date me out huh?

ok la, so i lied about doing something productive. this is not productive at all. i am too lazy to blog, i admit. ugh.

2006-09-06T08:13:00.000-07:00

i've been so busy with school, i have no time to blog. ok a, maybe school is just an excuse. i admit, i am lazy. but really, school has been stressing. its true they say. colour and visco CANNOT come together. it kills. i have made good friends with my paintbrushes and paints this past few weeks. thtas all that i've touched for lessons. i dont deny i have really learn alot from tese two subjects. colour i know will come in useful next time. but visco? why would an interior design student need to know about visual composition? (cuting and pasting shapes?) but ah well, i finally get an A for my work for visco. he is realy a man that is freaking hard to please. (not forgetting really sharp with his comment) i dont ike him, but i do enjoy visco.

i realise, i do miss secondary school days. alot. thinking about it now, there are many things i regret not regretting then. its true when they say poly life and sec schoo life is really different. i miss having exam. i miss siting at burger king to study for history. i miss taking down notes. i miss practicing maths. i miss doing source based questions. i miss writing essay. i miss memorising ting xie. i miss driving the teachers nuts. i miss the company. i miss singing to the song that is played in the radio. i miss pulling my belts higher whenever teachers walk pass. i miss the good old days. really. i'd do anything to go back and re-live that moment.

its very unfair. other polys and other schools are having hoidays whereas i am still slogging my life away.10 more days before holiday. faster come come come. i cant wait to enjoy myself. >:( so stressing!)

2006-08-27T07:20:00.000-07:00

above are some random photos. haha.

so i have been so busy i didnt have time to blog. i had work ok friday, ntl on saturday and homework for the whole day today. i have been having splitting headache since saturday. i think its because of the hot hot sun. and and i have very ugly obvious tan lines now. my chest and my neck has two different colours. eeeks! so does my arm. ugh. ugly ugly and ugly. aiyah, i cant complain much la, unless i wannna play naked on the field. then i will have perfect tan!

anyway i still dont know if i should skip school on thursday to go back to sjc. i do miss ms.yeo and other teachers. but i dont want to miss class either. >:( what a bum la.

and anyway, i am loving class i guess? its not as stressing as i thought it will be. i look forward to colours. but not visco though. cause the lecturer is just ugh. i dont like. i like lilie though. she's nice nice nice. :D i cant wait for this sem to end though. then i can have my 10 days holiday. yay! i have many catching ups to do!

my birthday is in almost a month time. i cant wait! hee. mommy is buying me a new wallet! yay yay yay! suddenly i love her so much. whereas i already received present from daddy. should i go back to indo for my birthday? because more relatives= more present. hahaha! i am so greedy!

alright, i think i should go back pasting papers. cheerios.

2006-08-22T08:01:00.000-07:00

so today was the first day of a new block. what can i say, i think its going to be an interesting yet stressing block. but i dont know what i just do not like my visco lecturer. he just have the, please-hate-me look. when i first saw him come in, i knew he was a guy that is hard to please. whatever, i just hope he give me good marks. doesnt matter what look he gives me. haha. whereas for colour, lilie is a VERY nice lady. at least i think so. i mean thats the impression she gave me. colour is going to be fun i can see.

our seniors will be up against rp this saturday. haha. its going to be an interesting match. i cant wait.

and i havent seen baby in ages. :( i have been so preoccupied with school work that i realise i haven't been making time for him. soon, i promise.

singapore idol tommorow. yay, i cannot wait! heehee. i am going to see jonathan perform TWICE. woolala!

2006-08-21T08:31:00.000-07:00

training felt weird today. i dont know why. i just didnt feel myself during training. i was upset. about what, i shan't elaborate. but i felt a whole lot better after training. really, like a WHOLE lot. (: so i am fine now, i guess.

before training i had a blast with my classmates at east coast park. we played games, chit chat, and fly kite ( something i have been wanting to do in a long time.) it was a good quality time spent with them. but something unfortunate happened to eunice's camera after i left, and no one wants to admit. oh ya, my feet was stained with oil from the sea. i HATE, and i say again, i HATE east coast park's beach. i had a hard time cleaning the oil from my feet. it was really gross, and and and i dont know what. i got irritated while cleaning it la. and i had to go back to school with soiled feet. how uncomfortable. i shouldnt have played in the water.

school starts again tommorow for me. new topic, new teacher. i hope i learn to love the subject i take. colour and visual communication. sounds really appealing. how stressing, i'll get to see it tommorow.

so i came back on time after training to catch america's next to model. i ♥. so here are the few models that i hope will go far. :D

2006-08-19T08:02:00.000-07:00

these are the reasons why i look for training every monday and thursday:

so we had NTL again today. and what can i say? i am very proud of my girls. (: we improved so much this week. defence was so much better. three punch up was still as penetrating. its really great to see us improving as a whole team. and after each session, it'll be so satisfying. i am really happy. and saturdays can never be as fulfilling as this. haha. although it means having to go all the way to turf city. walk in all the way to the field, the company is always great. :D aini and i had a great time talking about bisexuals. hahaha. so funny.

and so after NTL me and my dear liting went to arab street to get some stuff. haha. it was a good quality time spent eventhough it was a short while. i enjoyed myself. then she accompanied me to suntec to pass my supervisor something. and then mommy picked me up from there.

alright, thats how my saturday was spent. i am so TIRED.

DEEDEEMARINI, YOU ARE SO SELFISH! AND YOU OUGHT TO HATE YOURSELF FOR THAT!

2006-08-15T07:35:00.000-07:00

i am still not over the fact that we are going to be separated next semester. why la? what kind of stupid system is that? cant we have the same classmates? i mean it comes to a point that we all have built strong bonds and all. what a bum la. what am i going to do in class when i am bored? no one to gossip with anymore. and we are all so close that we know what each other is thinking. for eg, when me and eunice were in the lift the other time we say a certain kind of badge on someone's bag and we didnt say anything until we got out of the lift. that was hilarious. and and and. i have no one to complain when i am hungry. like, "eunice, i am so HUNG___" "why are we so GREEEDY?" heehee.

so today we handed in our project 3. thank go is over. and now we are faced with project 4. its not so stressing i guess since it is group work. but still... anyway class was on for only 10 minutes today. so we went to library grab some books and i cabbed down to gardens to meet that silly baby. watched dvd at darrell's place. it was a good show. but only me and vic seemed to be interested. it was a short while that i saw him, but i guess it was fulfilling. i miss him so much. (: oh and i bumped into a few of my ex schoolmates. nice seeing them after so long.

so anyway, here is an early birthday shout out to JOLENE TAN. HAPPY EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY. enjoy yourself. and as much as i hate to say this, you are fun to have around! haha.

2006-08-14T09:03:00.000-07:00

training today is fine. other then the fact that i almost threw up halfway. i felt so terrible the whole time la. i felt so so sick. must be the kfc i had before training. i swear no more KFC for me before training. it just totally spoil my mood for training la. and and i fell down and got myself knocked on my lips. now i have sexy lips. marli was poking fun at me saying." orh, cannot kiss already!" haha. so after the drills were the games. i was pretty happy with my team's performance today. the punch up were penetraiting and i could see they are trying out loops. and there are a few times which it actually worked. my teammates are slowly opening up to comments already. they are slowly learning to take in comments and actually listen and communicate during training. which is infact a good thing. so i guess today's training was pretty ok. TEEHEE.

i am so going to screw project 3 for lighting. aiyah hack care la. screw lighting. i just cant wait to get done with it and move on to the next block.

and suddenly my mood for blogging is destroyed. so to hell with everything.

2006-08-13T06:44:00.000-07:00

today was spent looking at lights. i swear i will get blinded by lights soon. we travelled from one end of singapore to the other end of singapore just to look for ONE DINING TABLE light. i swear my parents have nothing better to do. what is worst, they dragged me along. i thought i could take today as a shopping day, but no, luck wasnt by my side this time. haha.

i feel as if i am deprived of my beauty sleep these few days. i havent had afternoon nap for what seemed like eternity. and now, i am dead bored. baby is busy working. i think i should find myself a sugar daddy to keep myself occupied when baby isn't around. hahaha. i need entertainment now. i think i will just end up watching dvds again. life can be so boring. and i have a pile of work waiting for me to start on, but i am just too lazy to do so. see, this is what i mean by knowing the problem is there yet i choose not to conquer it. haha. it will probably be last minute work again! oh well, thats deedeemarini. whats new?

my room at my new house is going to be so greeny i swear. haha. whoever steps inside will feel as if they are in a jungle! haha. i cant wait to shift in to my new place. yay yay yay! but actually no i can wait. cause i will be further from so many people once i shift. oh well!

alright i shall go paint my nails now. hopefully it will help kill boredom! sigh.

2006-08-12T20:35:00.000-07:00

so yesterday we had our first real game of NTL and we lost. haha. i kinda expected it. but overall i think our team did much much better then last week. we managed to score 1. haha. and and all our drills were put to used but i thought we could have worked a whole lot better at defence. i dont see people chasing still when someone broke through. i still dont see much urgency. but whatever it is we still have pleanty of time to improve. so yes, no worries. haha.

now i am a chao da kia. i am burnt. and am as black as charcoal. i want a tan not burnt. hahaha. ok la, so these few days have been busy doing up my project. preentation was on friday and i can say i sucked. but its ok las its only project three. we still have one more to go. so hopefully, i will do a better job on project 4. i got back my first and secont project. i got a B+. i thought it was considered ok for a last minute work. i am such a last minute worker and its not a good habit.

ok la, i am off for lunch with my family. i shall update more tonight! (:

2006-08-08T09:13:00.000-07:00

so much has happened over the weekend. i dont even know where to begin. so nevermind about what has passed, lets talk about whats going to come up next for me. tommorow, i will stay home the WHOLE day to do my work, i promise. i have truck loads of project to complete. i went for consultation in school today, and i realise how much i am lagging behind. so scary la. so tommorow is strictly for work only. and thursday will be baby and i's first month. i dont know if we can spend it together though. sigh. i am so busy! =( if only i had more then 24 hours. then friday will be project submission. will i be able to rush everything by friday? hopefully. saturday, NTL. i hope we'll perform better. we'll be playing against our own senior FOR REAL now. so, we can only work on our defence. and if we're lucky, maybe score a try.

i am having headache these few days over this, and that! haiyo! so many things to do, yet so little time. and i guess, what happened the other time was a blessing in disguise. and i do believe there is a silver lining to every dark cloud. ((:

//baby, you're just amazing.

2006-08-02T10:11:00.000-07:00

project is depriving me of my freedom! >=( just as i said lighting was slack, the work load start piling up! haha. its insane ok! i am having a headache already. tommorow, i still got to take up early to go to school to complete my work. wah, i have no life.

so today i woke up extra early so that i can watch lake house with baby. i would say it is a nice show. but i have no idea why critics give it only 2 out of 5 stars. i think they deserve more. story plot was kinda interesting but the ending was somehow expected. but some parts did make me go "awwww". and admit keanu reeves was hopelessly romantic in some parts of the movie. so, i'd urge you people to go watch it. click will be my next movie.( thats if i finish my work on time).

i think i better head for bed soon. i am already yawning like there is no tommorow. i still have training the next day. i need to be all pumped up. and before i go, here are two pictures of the birthday celebration of our dear jenny. (:

2006-07-31T08:17:00.000-07:00

i am really glad i have good friends around me who truely cares. like today, nicole got me chocolates knowing that i was upset about the selection thing. and sharon got me a lollipop. that was really sweet of her. i mean its not really expensice things that they give me, but its the thoughts that counts. i am really happy. and like after training today, lulu heard i was very upset on thursday, and she came to talk to me, telling me i can always go to her if i am not really happy about things. (: and i am touched. what she said hit me hard too. and i was thinking about it on my way home. and it dawned on me that its not the end. some seniors can be really encouraging. and i guess they are the reasons why i continue coming for training. i mean i dont deny that quiting rugby did come across my mind after the selection, but now i feel so stupid to even have that kind of thought. i mean i love rugby, and i will work hard towards other competitions. it will be so stupid to quit now. i still have 2 more years agead. whats the rush. right?

training today didnt turn out as bad as i thought it would. and what vie said was so true. hmm, i think right now, i just have to get used playing with the rest of the freshies. communicating with them will do just the job. i fell down thrice during training today. haha. now i have head concussion(spl?). it was hilarious i tell you. but over all, i am quite satisfied with my performance. although there can be some more improvements. one thing good training with my present team, there arent much pressure. and playing with kailing can be so fun! i love looping her. hahaha. cause thats the only time i broke through and score. ok la, maybe its not that bad after all although i still wish i was in that team.

2006-07-30T10:13:00.000-07:00

work was a blast! i had so much fun today! TEEHEE. maybe because i was working since 4 and i had no break! and i turned crazy almost at the end. haha, so here are some ugly photos of me during work.

i was obviously playing with food! hahaha. then i took sliced carrots, pretending it was my moustache. and i took some alfafa sprout pretending they were armpit hair. HAHA! and zati suddenly thought of pubic hair! haha. i was hilarious i tell you! and i ate alot alot alot today! woolala! we had left over chocolate ice creams too. its yummylicious. working can be really fun as long as you find the right people to work with! :D

so after work, they had a surprise birthday celebration for our dear jenny! haha. we took many many photos. (: soon after i left for gardens to meet that silly boy. he was eating this big plate of cabonara! just by the sight of it got me really sick! cause the portion is huge, and it was super creamy. he has a hard time finishing it as well! haha. seeing him gorge that whole plate down makes me laugh.

and oh dyan called me! (: i am glad i had a good time talking to her. its been sometimes. caught up more or less with each other's life. and i have to find time for that girl soon. i miss her la!

training for me tommorow, and i've decided to go.

2006-07-29T09:59:00.000-07:00

i had work today, it was pretty tiring but 4 customers made my day. i started off with a pretty bad day spilling almost anything and everything. i felt like a clumsy ass. but during dinner time those 4 customers made my day by praising me. TEEHEE. they said i gave good service because it took me like 15-20 minutes just taking their order, explaining to them what each main dish is. and what made it worst, i had to speak in chinese. so i was having some difficulties. but all in all, it was kind of a sucess because the customers got what they want to eat. thank god i didnt screw up. or else it would have made my day worst.

so i spent the whole day working. during my break i went to meet baby. we were like walking aimlessly not knowing where to go. because i only had 2 hours break. couldnt go anywhere far. so we went to esplanade to walk around. actually anywhere is fine with me as long as i get to spend some quality time with that lover boy.

after work, baby came down to pick me up. it was really nice of him. bus rides can never be so fun without him.

i'll be working again tommorow. but work doesnt start until 4. so hopefully i get to catch up on my beauty sleep. touch training is as per normal on monday. i am having doubts about it. i dont know. part of me wants to go and the other part of me, is holding me back. i dont know why i'm feeling this way too. hopefully i get y decision by tommorow. sigh. setbacks was never this has to handle. i still cant put it behind me. aiyay. i am so useless la! its just NTL deedeemarini!

//your arms is where i want to be forever.

2006-07-28T05:45:00.000-07:00

i was not in the right mood to update yesterday. today i guess i am feeling much better then yesterday. i still need time to get over the fact that i didnt make it into NTL team. vie was being really nice last night, although i was being super stubborn. i know the chances was very slim when marli suddenly told us that she was going to make the decision that night. anyway only 5 freshies were chosen to play. so all the best to all those who made into the team. i guess no point brooding over it now right? all i can do is work hard for future competitions. blame myself for injuring my backbone after lionreds. that made me not able to come for training and take part in YMCA. i have no one else to blame, but myself. but nonetheless, i want to thank all those who cared and told me its not the end of the world. vie, liting (thank you for that lovely card and m&ms. it sure did brightened up my day.) manda, baby and brian. i guess vie talked alot of sense into me last night. and somehow i have to agree with her. so no worries. the weekend will be just enough for me to forget about this whole thing and by monday i will be all ready for training.

today's lesson was just to submit our work and tony just touved up alittle on lighting legend. so in total lesson was only on for 45 minutes. after that i met baby at sji to watch rugby match between st.andrews and sji. st.andrews won of course. it wasnt surprising at all. i kind of expected it. anyway this block is really slack. and i am not used to it. i rather work be piling actually. i dont know why too. i feel so uncomfortable coming home by 6 almost everyday. there are homeworks la, but its like those kind that can be completed within 30 minutes.

i am working tommorow. i cant wait. thats the only time i get to meet different kind of people. but hopefully i am not hosting. i hate hosting. :( its the boringest job on planet earth la! all you do is just stand behind a pile of menus and bring customers to their table. what a bummer.

anyway, i just choose the wallpaper for my new room. wee. i cant wait for my new house to be done! (: my room is a little green-y. and all i can say is, i love. i think its VOLALA! :D

sigh. i think i am going to miss playing with the seniors. 10 weeks training without them. :( i'll miss training with liting too! oh well. anyway congratulations to the 18 who made it into the team. all the best and play hard!

why oh why? :(

2006-07-27T10:40:00.000-07:00

my dreams are shattered.
what a great disappoinment.

2006-07-26T06:54:00.000-07:00

i think i am beginning to love lighting. because its pretty interesting, compared to the other subjects i took. it has less hands on. today we were introduced to the different kindsof light and bulb. alot to remember but i thought its amazing how different parts of the house needed different kind of lighting. today's lesson was definitely productive. i learnt so much. tommorow we will be going to the airpot i think to look at the lighting there. after that i still have training. i hope i perform tommorow. i have to perform, tommorow is my last chance to prove myself.

i saw guang today after class. it was nice seeing him after a long time. haha! he still cant speak properly after so long with braces on! haha. i saw alvin too. he remembered when i first talked to him! hahaha. thats amazing. after i walked away i then realised he is the president of TPSU thise year. i forgot to congratulate him. haha.

i think i am so pathetic these few days because i have been going around begging for songs! blame my laptop for having no songs la! i wanted to download imesh but i was not sure if apple could support lime wire. and moreover i am so lazy. i wouldnt be bothered to go through the trouble of downloading one song at a time. hee.

so i watched singapore idol. i thought jonathan was good. (as usual) i was so mesmerized by him, really. i was so mesmerized by his look till i didn't even listen to what he said. really! ask baby! he was asking me why i didnt call him after the show, he asked me if i went to buy beancurd. i was like huh? beancurd? what beancurd? i thought he was talking rubbish until he explained to me that its jonathan's favourtie breakfast! you see what i mean. haha. he is so charming. really. i really wouldnt know what to do if he dont win SI. i pin my hopes on him.

i'm in love with stacie orrico's i'm not missing you. it has been on replay mood every since last night. VOOLALA! i love it.

anyway i am still not over the fact i wouldnt be in the same class as my classmates next semester. actually i dont ask much. just for eunice, imma, hannan, nas, nazri and russell to be in the same class as me. i am not greedy what right? i just want 6 of them only. not that i request for everyone. oh well. we'll see how when semester 2 comes.

2006-07-25T09:10:00.000-07:00

i swear school was so slack today. it was just museum visiting. and it was only for an hour. because the rest of time was spent waiting for the bus to arrive. i think the bus uncle got lost or something. haha. and something very funny happened when we got up the bus just now. HAHA. damn funny. i want to tell but damn lazy to type. and i am happy i finally see Eunice today after 4 long days. (: seeing eunice=more gossips. and we both cant help burst out laughing so loudly when we saw someone. hahaha.

anyway, we went to museum not to look at art piece you know. haha. we went there for what you know? to look at the LIGHTING in the museum. haha, interesting right? so interesting i can cry of boredom. but luckily we spent only 1 hour inside. tmr i have to wake up and find all my MTPRE stuff for shirley soh. that girl ah, so troublesome please. haha. but i shall be nice. ok shirley? hee.

i just had a quarrel with my parents just now over money issues. they want me to stop working. i said can, give me more cash la. but they refused to. so i refused to stop working as well. so unreasonable right? cannot compramise. now they are mad at me for not listening to them. so can i be mad at them for not compramising too? forever this case. money is always the issue. if only i print money! then it would make me and my family a happier family. less arguments. then we can live in peace and harmony.

i dont care, i am still going to work to get extra earnings. not that i dont want to talk things out nicely, its just that they dont want to compramise, so there is nothing i can do but to get mad at them right? so annoying la. they dont force me to rob the bank or something. haha. ask me if money is really that important, i'd say yes. come one be realistic, who can live without money? to survive in this planet earth, you need KA-CHINGG. but i know my limits. i wont resort to stealing, or doing stuff thats against my morale. if i want money, i'd ask, if i dont recieve, i'd work for it.

why money is such an issue to me? i dont know. ask the society. haha. hopefully, i achieve something out of interior design and excel in my career so i can earn big bucks. if not i dont know how i am going to survive next time. haha.

2006-07-24T08:11:00.000-07:00

i just came back from training. and i am all tired out. training wasnt that tough today maybe because there is no physical. thank god. but somehow i wasnt really happy with my performance during training today. i keep on forgetting to stay steep. >:( i am such a bummer i tell you. mali had to remind me several times. and after that, i thought i could have played better during the games jsut now. i guess i was side tracked by certain things. i think i have to learn how to put problems aside during training. i shouldnt let comments affect my performance. oh, i promise myself i will work on that. i just felt lousy today, i wonder why. i am so afraid i cant play for NTL. :( hopefully the selection will turn out fine. sigh.

i met baby for lunch today, and then we went down to PS to meet up with vic and company. had our lunch and theni headed to park mall for my dental check up. i had 2 cavaties ok. the drilling was so painful la. just as i stepped out of the dentist i promise myself i wont eat so much sweets anymore but just as i reached school, i went to cheers to buy sweets. how dumb of me.

i am feeling pretty down now. maybe because of the not so productive training for me and something that happened earlier on. aiyah, screw this feeling. hope it goes away soon.

anyway, i bought flip flops from NUM today. i was so freaking fickle minded i think the guy was somehow getting pissed already, i tried so many of them. i was choosing between a few designs. not only that, i was confused whether to take the smaller size or the bigger size. i was reall super fickle minded even i myself couldnt stand it. but i finally settled down for the bigger size one. and i hope i can remember to transfer money to sharon. if not say bye bye to my red birks.

i am getting my pay soon. yay! hopefully its more this time. haahah! i want to do shopping shopping and more shopping. ok so its not a want, its a need.

2006-07-23T09:52:00.000-07:00

so i worked again today. i dont know why today time seems to pass really so slowly. when i thought we could finally close, my manager told me it was only 8! wah, i was thinking to myself, 2 more long hours to go. and so, after 6 hours of standing with rest, my legs feel as if its going to give way soon. did i mention? i have the most disgusting pervetic friend ever in work! he thinks about sex every second and the worst thing, he talks about it openly. hahaha! i so want to laugh at him la. nothing clean comes out from his mouth i swear. but he is a really funny guy la. bus journey felt so boring and lonely today. cause that silly boy couldnt pick me up from work. but thank god, he talked to me till i reach home. if it weren't for him, i think i will probably die of boredom in the bus. thank you love.

anyway, training for me tommorow, without manda. oh dear, i really cant imagine training days without her. no one to talk cock and gossip with. haha. but hopefully she will come back training on thursday.

and oh yes, i forgot to thank GUANG. a big special thank you to you, for making this lovely blog for me! :D and HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY. i am sorry i couldnt go to your bbq. i had to work! i will date you out soon to make it up to you ok?

i was kinda pissed by certain someone just now. and because of that particular someone, i blew up at pax. you see la, this is what you get for not being able to control your temper. and i hate people who assumes things. what a bugger.

2006-07-22T09:36:00.000-07:00

so i have finally decided to upload my dead blog. i have been so busy with school work lately. its projects and projects everyday. if i am not in school, i will be in suntec, working. i have no life seriously. i am so busy juggling between school, rugby and work that i barely have time for my loved ones. NTL is coming and i do hope i get selected to play. only 18 will be selected to play. they had a pre-selection on monday. they chose 24 out of the whole team, and so far so good, i am in.

i am so glad, i finish 3rd block. tursday marked the last day of model making days. now, i cant wait for my next block because i have to attend only 3 hours of school everyday. (: from 3-6. at least i wont be as busy as last time. hopefully, i will have enough time for friends, family, and my that silly one.

despite my busy scheduly, i am still glad that God is doing wonders in my life. he has been so good to me, showering me with love and good friends. i am so glad things are working out fine in school. at least now i look forward to school because of the nice and loving classmates i have in class. we laugh, we cry, we curse the lectures, we gossip all together. (: and we have been pretty much staying in school till 11 almost everytime. ordering mac donalds have now become a routine. though it can be tiring to stay until so late in school, classmated made it so fun. we joked our way through and not forgetting trying to scare father ben. hahaha.

and so, i just came back from work. today was a very fun day. all my friends at work make waitressing less tiring. haha. they are a bunch of nice people even though they embarrassed me infront of a very hot guy today. hahah! long story la. i am damn lazy to type. and oh, i saw regina today while i was at town. haaha. its been ages since i saw her. (:

**, dont be upset over things. i am sure things will work out soon for you. if there is anything i can do to make you feel better, tell me ok? take care.

2006-07-18T07:30:00.000-07:00

i am so happy i have new templates. i will update once projects are over. soon soon soon.

2006-06-24T18:48:00.000-07:00

lynne: hello lynne, i am surprised you read my blog! haha. but, its nice to know you bother. (: i'll link you up soon ok? take care and see you real soon.

r'ai : hello r'ai, yes please do come drop by soon. its been ages since i last saw you. and, sorry i mistook you for my friend the other night. haa. thats the outcome of being to sleepy and sickly. take care.

so, i just came back from touch rugby camp yesterday. i swear its freaking tiring. so tiring i wanna die la! but it was a good and productive camp overall. we freshies got to bond with the seniors. we are all now more open to one another. which is a good thing. and i have gained more composure to the game. which is another good thing. the only part i didnt like was the "turn over a new leaf" we played that game for straight 7 hours ok. what we were supposed to do was all 20+ of us had to get on top of a small matt and while on it we have to try to flip the matt to the other side without touching the ground. how possible was it to do it within 5 minutes. and for punishemnts if we couldnt do it, we have to do 20 push ups. and the punishment doubles up each time. so in total, we did like 1000+ push ups. OH MY MAMA i tell you, my body ached the next day ok. it ached so freaking much! so then on the second day we played against RSC. all i can say, we sucked on the first half but after much trashing and scolding from our coach, i guess we all somehow woke up and played so much better on the second half. the last game was played by the seniors and juniors. and i must say they did themselves proud. all in all, it was a good experience la. this camp was fun and it bonded us more together as a team. everyone bothered to get to know one another.

so i was so tired after camp that i slept like a pig. i got back from camp at about 1. i slept from 2-9 and then ate my dinner and continued sleeping from 11-9 this morning. i slept for a good 17 hours. i could have slept more, but decided not too. cause i know i will get grouchy if i have too much sleep.

anyway, i will be collecting my macbook pro later on. yes, i cant wait. haha. i finally can get hold of my new baby. after a long wait. woohoo. i am one happy girl. i'll be working later this evening. i hope i can make it through the night. cause i have no mood for work. SIGH. school's opening on tuesday. i am looking forward to it but at the same time, not looking forward to it too. some reason or another.

and guang, if you happen to read this, i am still waiting for my blogskin to be ready. haha. quick quick quick. i am sick and tired of my old skin. =/

2006-06-14T07:15:00.000-07:00

Eunice: hello my dear, no. life's not as good as you think it is for me. haha. i am one lost child ok. and yours cant be that bad either right? anyhoos, see you soon. (:

my nose is running like a tap. i have a runny nose, bad cough, fever, and what nots. how great, how bad can this get? i think its because of monday's tough training. it was PT all the way ok. wah, it has been ages since i last did such training. but all in all, it was satisfying i guess. (: now i am still thinking whether i should go for training tmr, cause i am so sickly, i wanna die. haha.

i think i have the hots for Jonathan Leong one of the Singapore idol contestant. he just has his charms la. and he sings well. aiyah, no need to compete already la. they should just crown him the singapore idol or something. cause today's contestant all sounded like ducks. haha. so much for saving the best for the last. haha.

i caught RV today. it was not bad. a pretty hilarious show. haha. i had a good laugh. (: and i also caught she's the man on sunday. amanda bynes is just so hot la. be it trying to be a guy or a girl herself. and i saw ** on sunday. (: it was nice seeing her after so long. she has defintely grown in size. haha. oh well, i cant help remeniscing about the past.

and i realise. i have yet to collect my Olevel cert. and the deadline i last heard for collection is like June. alamak. how am i gonna make time to go all the way to sengkang just to collect a piece of paper la. this is bad. my mom is bugging me and she cant stop telling me how important that piece of paper is for my future. ya loh a paper which states i get 18 points is so important to me la. please, its not like i got 8 points or something. haha.

** i am being held back by future consequences.

2006-06-08T21:12:00.001-07:00

work has been pretty fine fore me. (: do you know whats the best part of working? to get a pleasent surprise visit from your friends, especially those you miss pretty much. yesterday guang and andrew came by to say hi to me, its was really a pleasent surprise. and the day before deon, merv and their friends came. haha. other then that, will be going to carefour to choose your favourite cereal. haha, yes, there was no one at the restaurant, thats how free we are. my supervisor could even go to the kitchen, take one solid corn and slowly pluck one seed by one seed so he can make himself a cup corn. haha. the result of having no customers can be so hilarious.

but i doubt we can do all those tonight. its friday night. -sulks. but but, it just means i get to work with geraldine. hooray hooray. (: and OH YA, i forgot to mention, dyan came down for interview yesterday. so, it means i will soon be working with her. =D working with dyan= spending more time with her= catching up on alot of stuff= i cant wait= and i <3.>

so anyway, i promise myself, before my school holiday ends, i will make time and go out with geraldine leong for at least one day. i miss spending quality time with that asshole la. when is she ever going to be free for me? OH WELL.

and i was suppose to blog what i blog today, last night, but i ended up reading my old blog entry in my old blog. ( the one i deleted.) i dont deny, i miss the good old times. the last time i went to the zoo was like on the 31st July 2004! and thats almost two years ago! and i rememebered after the zoo outing i swear to myself not to go back there anymore, because the place stank so much, i had such a hard time. but i dont know why, despite that, i still miss looking at those animals. i will go back there, soon.

<3,>

2006-06-08T21:12:00.000-07:00
work has been pretty fine fore me. (: do you know whats the best part of working? to get a pleasent surprise visit from your friends, especially those you miss pretty much. yesterday guang and andrew came by to say hi to me, its was really a pleasent surprise. and the day before deon, merv and their friends came. haha. other then that, will be going to carefour to choose your favourite cereal. haha, yes, there was no one at the restaurant, thats how free we are. my supervisor could even go to the kitchen, take one solid corn and slowly pluck one seed by one seed so he can make himself a cup corn. haha. the result of having no customers can be so hilarious.

but i doubt we can do all those tonight. its friday night. -sulks. but but, it just means i get to work with geraldine. hooray hooray. (: and OH YA, i forgot to mention, dyan came down for interview yesterday. so, it means i will soon be working with her. =D working with dyan= spending more time with her= catching up on alot of stuff= i cant wait= and i <3.>

so anyway, i promise myself, before my school holiday ends, i will make time and go out with geraldine leong for at least one day. i miss spending quality time with that asshole la. when is she ever going to be free for me? OH WELL.

and i was suppose to blog what i blog today, last night, but i ended up reading my old blog entry in my old blog. ( the one i deleted.) i dont deny, i miss the good old times. the last time i went to the zoo was like on the 31st July 2004! and thats almost two years ago! and i rememebered after the zoo outing i swear to myself not to go back there anymore, because the place stank so much, i had such a hard time. but i dont know why, despite that, i still miss looking at those animals. i will go back there, soon.

<3,>

2006-06-07T21:57:00.000-07:00
OH MY GOOD GOD. what a small world we are all living in. i am talking to mandy online, and we are screaming out guts out because she knows this person who happens to be my friend's ex. aiyoh, this is the wonder of friendster la. HAHA. oh dear, this is so fun. and not only this. last night i discovered a super funny fact. my friend's lover, happens to be my friend's friend. aiya.. everyone are just friends' friend friend la. haha. what a long connection.

ok, so i was suppose to blog about emo stuff again today, but mandy just made me put those thoughts aside. haha. now i am still gushing over the new fact we both just got to know. oh man. haha! i still cannot believe this.

oh mandy, you made my day la! hahaha, now i have something new to think over. the new found fact. we are gossiping like there is no tommorow. haha. oh yay yay yay yay.

and we both came to a conclusion. this person A is a bloody flirt. thank God i did what i did. or else. haha. ok now, mandy if you are reading this, i think i have the hotts for you. haha!

2006-06-06T10:13:00.000-07:00
i sense another different attitude. or maybe its just me thinking too much. whatever happens to all the promises made?

2006-06-04T19:57:00.000-07:00
ok, so maybe i was having a mojor pms last night. not that i could help it. maybe because i went blog hopping to much, i broke my leg. thats always the case. (read things i dont wanna read.) but i am feeling all better already today, hopefully. geraldine leong sent me a message last night and it made me tear a little. thanks so much pumpkin, i love you, as always. (:

thanks to all those who cared, and bothered to rey to make me smile. haha! that teddy bear's entry did make me smile alittle. so ok la, give him so credits, considering he sent me some italian coffee through email. HAHA.

no work for me today. that just means i have time to catch up on my beauty sleep. yayy. i cant sleep till i drop.

ok, so i dont know what to blog anymore. goodbye world.

BRIAN: thanks darling, i'm fine already. (: i love you.

I'll Bring U more than a song!: hey, thanks for knocking some sense in. anyway you are?

2006-06-04T19:54:00.000-07:00

The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to obedience and warmth.
In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.
Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.
What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

2006-06-04T06:04:00.000-07:00
i hate feeling this way la. =( how long has it been since i felt this way? hmmm, lets see, almost two years ago. gerladine leong, if you happen to read this, i want to say, i think i am a piece of dead meat. please call me out soon. i need to pour out all my sorrows and life story to you. but please be prepared, you might get bored.

WHY AM I LETTING MYSELF FEEL THIS WAY? i feel so sad now i want to die. =( why why why why why why why why why why why why why. i should have used my head first to think then use my heart. why and how come i dont learn from my mistake? deedeemarini you are stupid asshole.

ihulycimh.

2006-05-29T07:26:00.000-07:00
XXXXXXXXXXX : you are just out to embarrass me! hahaha.

Shirley: i also know. :(

gerald: YA LA! and you got to stop that monster from coming out of me ok. or else you will die too. you have to keep up with my rantings. oh dear. oh dear.

I AM OFFICIALLY EMPLOYED! THREE CHEERS FOR DEEDEEMARINI PLEASE! I AM SO HAPPY! :D but of course i wouldnt have gotten the job if it weren't for geraldine(koh). thank you so very much my dear. i owe you one. thanks for accompanying me down for the interview too. (:

I AM SO HAPPY! TMR WILL BE MY FIRST DAY OF WORK AND I CANT WAIT. I AM ACTUALLY WORKING! WOOHOO! YAYY! YAYY! YAYY! i'll be working at suntec city's surf and turf.

I AM AN EXCITED COW!

2006-05-28T06:58:00.000-07:00
I AM AS TROUBLED AS OSAMA BIN LADEN (ok thats random).
HOW NOW BROWN COW?
DEEDEEMARINI, YOU ARE ALWAYS GIVING YOURSELF UNNECESSARY TROUBLES.
WHY? WHY ARE YOU SO DUMB?
now sarah hoe dont want to help me. she is SO NICE.

2006-05-26T07:11:00.000-07:00
gerald: it was nice seeing you yesterday and today. (: i miss you soo much. more of that please. i have tons to tell you about **(TEEHEE.) i am back to my sec one days. OH DEAR.

so our school had CNN day today. it was over all satisfying. :D our group opened a burger stall. it wasnt really a good idea, cause i thought it was pretty costly for a burger. the in charge had a fantastic idea at first but something screwed up along the way. so their plan had to change. i hope we'll do a better a better job next year. anyway, today deedeemarini is a pretty happy girl. i have been smiling like a fool since noon. (TEEHEE.):D i'm high on adrenaline.

we sold out or burger by 2+ and so i was suppose to go shopping with shirley but had a change of plan so i've decided to go home instead. i had a good afternoon catching up with mr.pillow and miss.bolster. i had a dream by the way. a good one. :D (TEEHEE again.) i just hope i can sleep and stay in my dream forever. oh wouldnt that be oh so wonderful. so yes, i slept till 7+. i feel so rejuvinated after i woke up. I <3.

school holiday is here once again. i am going on a diet starting from tommorow. and yes, mommy is officially hiring me. i am going to work my ass of and go shopping till i drop or something. i cant wait to get my hands on all the KACHINGGG and splurge splurge splurge. WEEE.

x-men with my classmates on monday. i cant wait to see ice man. WOO LA LA. ( i told you i am high!)

ok la, i think i better stop here, or else i am just going to TEEHEE AND TEE HEE NONSTOP. :D :D :D :D.

WEEEEEEEEE!

2006-05-24T07:13:00.000-07:00
ger: hey, thanks dear. i am fine. thanks, i'll be here for you too, always. meet up for lunch soon. we need some girl to girl talk. (:

ah kai: haha. yes yes, hopefully my grades will prove that i am clever.

i had a very weird dream two night ago. and its sort of a nightmare. major one for me. that was like the worst thing that can ever happen to me in my life right now. i really wouldnt know what to do if that really happens. i will probably just jump down and die or somehing. because no matter how much i say i dont like my mom or dad, deep down i love them more then anything else in this world. God is my first priority, and what comes next will be them already. so i really wouldnt know what to do without having them around me. maybe because i am so used to having them by my side. they have become the air that i breathe. oh dear, what stupid dream i had. got me all emotional for nothing.

final projects are all done. almost la. haha. and i am pretty satisfied. although i think i can do much better if i have autocad at home. i can take my own sweet time to do at home and not rush through my work in school. oh well, i got to wait till i shift house before my mom gets me my imac. faster august la. i want to move house plus i want a new computer. pray pray pray.

I think i really have nice classmates. they are a nice bunch of people to hang out with. ( this is my dont know how many times mentioning it already but still..) i dont care how much they hate me or find me irritating, i still love all of them to bits. right eunice, i dont care how much you detest me, i still love you. today during perry's class, everyone was singing to backstreet boys songs ok. like from the very first album to the recent one. so old school la please. haha. and surprising to know that almost everyone was once a fan of backstreet boys. haha. i was a huge fan by the way. haha.

school holiday for me next week. a month of holiday. i was wondering whether i should go get a job or stay at home to rot. hmmmm. but i think mommy might want me to go back to indo. i dont know. see how la.

i am blessed with great friends around no doubt, bu i still miss my sec school friends. yes, i can tell we drifted. =( geraldine leong, if you see this, i wanna let you know how much i miss you. please please please meet up soon? you are so near yet so far.
and i love brian tan la. he is just the cockiest thing on planet earth. haha. he and dan are my favourite darlings. =D
and let me share with the world what kai did. haha. so cute la please. thanks very much kai.

2006-05-23T06:48:00.000-07:00
i think i am a stupid cow.
stupid stupid cow.
why am i so hopeless? stupidee.

2006-05-17T08:24:00.000-07:00
ah kai: WAHAHAHA! =D

eunice: hahaha! i will be softer if you promise to stop teasing me. and you havent thank me yet for teaching you one point perspective. if its wasnt for me, eunice tan will be going home being a blur cock. (oh, you can ask ** to teach you too! hehe. dont forget she is from IAD too.)

r'ai: hey, its nice to see you drop by. thanks for your concern my dear. you're always there to put a smile on my face. hope to see you soon. you take care too please.

gerald: please call me whenever you need me. you know i'll always be here for you. i never wanna see you sad my lil one. i love you soo much gerladine leong siok kheng. please take care.

i conclude i am a very competetive person. and i think its not good. so far i've got 4As 2B+ 2C+ and yet, i am still not satisfied. i dont like Bs and Cs. i like only As. so from today on, i will strive for A for every assignment. i wanna do well la. i cant study for nuts, so i better do well in drawing. or else, i will be one dumb cock.

projects slowly piling up already. and i dont know why i am kinda enjoying it. haha. i rather do hw then sit down do nothing. and i love perry's classes. its his class that makes me look forward to school everyday. haha. and also because of my super lovable classmates.

touch rugby tommorow. oh yay i cant wait! haha. i want to exercise. i want to lose weight. and evaluation was on monday, i hope i got in. i really wanna be in touch la. SO PLEASE, I PRAY FOR GOOD NEWS. haha. every training i'll always see the dragon boat-ers train. and i feel so tired for them la. their training are super SHIONG man. and i am proud of geraldine leong. she is still hanging on. haha.

and and and, this week marks the most embarrassing week for deedeemarinisuherman. now i dont dare to even look at my eye candy anymore. i think he knows that he is my eye candy. stupid vincent la! tsk.

2006-05-13T08:49:00.000-07:00
so i was suppose to blog about happy things. but i came across a blog, and i cant help feeling bad. so bad. =(

i am sorry, i didnt mean to do what i did. i thought you were fine with it.

=(

2006-05-11T08:06:00.000-07:00
ian : nothing to be sorry about. i am at fault too.

gerald : i love you too my dear. it was nice having lunch with you the other day. haha.

tilynn : oh sure it did. nice catching up with you anyway. (:

Mitch.: i am fine, thanks. yupp see you soon.

rina: i am glaed you dropped by! you havent forgotten about me! haha. i miss you too rina. all your crap and all. haha. hope to see you soon my dear.

someone.: thanks. (: i am fine.

evryone in tp design school wore their school u today. okay maybe not everybody but a handful. actually i was told quite sometimes ago. but i didnt know they were going to be so enthu about it. so at first i wore my home clothes there. but when i saw how much fun i was missing out, i went back home to change. i just couldnt help getting jealous over the amount of fun they are having. so i came back to school and bumped into sharlene. and yes, we took photos. haha. here are the evidences:

although i did get a few stares here and there, i didnt mind. cause the amount of fun overulled it for sure. haha. oh and did i mention, i have found my new eye candy in school. he is the cutest thing on planet earth, really. and no, i dont like him. i just find him hot. thats all. haha. he is soooo cute. i was trying to steal glances at him in KFC, but of course, to no avail, cause his back was facing me. ok, from now on, i am going to take a few trips to engine school, hoping to bump into him. (ok, i sound so sick.)

anyway, i just came back from training. pretty shagged. but had lotts of fun. training is starting to get shiong already. but its ok, i am loving it. haha. i can exercise. and yes lose weight. and after my training, i went to bathe and after so was approached by someone. he jsut made my day la i tell you. ( i shant elaborate much on that. will tell the world soon enough.) and yes, when i reach my house bus stop, it was pouring like mad la. thunderstorm and all. i was so freaking scared. and my mom can be SO UNREASONABLE LA! i dont like.

so fcbc with my darling dan this sunday. i cant wait. haha. i feel so bad after pangseh-ing him the other time. i promise myself that wont happen again. cause i dont want to feel like shit again la. i really felt so bad. but nvm. i am looking forward to this sunday for sure.

oh yes, kai came to school today cause he had no work. yupp met up with him after my class for awhile. and then i had to rush off for training already. he is so sweet la. he got me a bottle of hundred plus and some famous amos cookies. oh yes, i am blessed with great friends. God has really done wonders in my life.

i have really nice classmates too, not forgetting, eunice, that girl whom forever never fails to tease me and yes talk to me as if i own the whole indonesia. haha. and nas, that guy who sits beside me during class and constantly irritating me with his "ashes to ashes, dust to dust" and of course many many more like russell, adek and aiyah everyone la. ( ok, getting abit emo here, so i am going off now. bye world.

2006-05-07T23:50:00.000-07:00
he made everything sound so simple. my fault and never his. everyone thinks the reason for this whole ending is because of a third party. it never was. have you thought of the real reason why? perhaps your selfish attitude? we always had stupid quarrels. wondered why? maybe cause you didnt trust me enough. maybe not at all. you claim i say hurtful things. but you never thought of why i said those words i said. because each time i try to be nice and talk to you, you always shoot me back with your cruel and cold sarcastic remarks. and last night was the last straw. i couldnt take all the humiliation you threw me in your blog anymore. and i shot you all those hurtful words you have been longing to hear, and now you claim it was my fault. i dont say that i am completely flawless. i am at fault too, i admit. think about it. after all that has happened, have you, at any point of time think it was your fault?

all i wanted was a happy ending, for us to be friends again. if i knew all these shits were to happen, i rather not anyting start. at least right now, i will still have you as a friend. but since you chose things to be this way, then, i have nothing more to say.

2006-05-06T01:53:00.000-07:00
drewz : haha. no la. not so jialet la. maybe 456852 only. hahaha! its ok, dont worry. your turn will reach very very soon.

ah kai : haha. hello to you too! anyway, thanks for the eclair. its yummylicious. haha.

gerald : no no. correction. its more like when are you and tilynn going to be free for me. i am slacking everyday from 12-3, so please call me up. my break is so long, can die ah.

Dyan: i miss you too dyan. i promise i will make time for you soon ok? its been 4844556154645 years since i last saw you ah. alot of catching up to do. (:

school has officially started for me. and i am loving it. homework hasnt been exactly piling up for me. and i wonder why. i kinda miss having homework. haha. and i officially think i am a nuiscance in class. why? cause for every word my teacher said, i will reply him with ten times more. haha. and what more, i sing the school song in class when all of my friends are sketching. haha. oh yes, thats how irritating i am. i can sing until its stuck in my friend's head and she will also sinf along with me. haha. thats how powderful i am ok. anyway, i love my classmates. they are nice people. easy to get along with. and of them is an ex-sjcian too. and she used to be from the smartest class. when i found out about that i was like," what the heck are you doing in this class? you are suppose to be in NJC or something." haha.

i had lunch with kai, guang and shirley yesterday. haha. and after that we went to the school lounge to slack till out next class. mommy seems to be unhappy with me these few days. i think she is mad. she gets angry with ME for ending class at 6. shouldnt she be complaining to the school instead of nagging at me? its not my fault that i have such dumb time table. oh well, i am used to my mom's unreasonable-ness.

yay! i have decided to join touch rugby after much consideration. so now, my training partners will be amanda, sharon and hopefully ger also. cause ger has dragon boat trainings on monday which clashes with touch. so i am keeping my fingers crossed she will decide on touch. haha. and and and i cut my finger nails today for touch today. i am so proud of myself. (i was so very reluctant by the way.) haha.

and i have decided. in order to make mommy happy, i will be going home staright after school and hang out less with my friends in my free time. this will go on for at least a month. ( i hope it works.) haha. i want to be daddy's girl. haha.

2006-05-01T07:27:00.000-07:00
**: why do i have a feeling i am going to faint when i see your hair? haha. my friend's hair like that i already HIAM so long. i really cant imagine yours. haha.

ger: i look like a fish? haha. why do i look like so many animals? benny said i look like rabbit. hahah! me and my fish? hmmm, like that loh. its still alove and kicking. (= wahaha. and i do hope you solve your problem soon.

so the pass few days has been real fun for me. (although it deprived me of my beauty sleep.) had some sort of party on saturday at my place. slacked and had dinner. after that some left and some stayed over. haha. it was a crazy night i swear. everyone went wild. haha. in the middle of the night someone got hungry and ordered macs at 2+. i feel like a pig now. i feel fat.

so then after that on sunday we went to celbrate shawn's birthday at billy bombers. cake cuting was fun. he got smashed on his face. it was kinda wasted cause the cake looked really yummy. after that we went to pan pacific to slack around. but some of us left after that for esplanade. played some games there and then off we went to lau pa sat for supper. it was a great night, really.

BIRTHDAY BOY!

KAI THE FULL TIME CRAPPER AND I!

2006-04-28T05:53:00.000-07:00
gerald: my dear gerald, i miss you in class too. :( no one to bitch with about ***.

andrew: no la, your turn pass already. haha, now my number one is benny! haha. you get queue number again loh. wahaha!

XXXXX: yes, busy busy already. but i am sure we all will make time. i miss old schoolmates.

ger: i miss you too. and i am glad you have found your own kind of fish. haha!

school hasnt really start for me yet. but i have been going to school almost everyday to attend talks. all i can say, i am loving life at TP. (: the company is great. i love my new friends. they are just a bunch of fun people to be with la. haha. my talks are mostly a few hours. so the rest of the time will be spent slacking around. either in the school canteens or at the school lounge to play pool.

school will officially start next week. i am kinda looking forward to it. haha. so tommorow most of them are coming over my house to slack. reason being, my mom is out of town! hooray hooray. sure creat havoc i tell you. and some of the guys are bringing booze. all coming my house to get wasted. how nice. haha.

i want dimples. because i think anyone with dimples are hot. haha. so here's me and my new scandal. benny. (:

2006-04-23T07:31:00.000-07:00
someone: haha. who are you?

ger: i'll link you. not to worry. anyway, i miss you. we'll meet up soon for lunch or something ok?

peishan: LOVE to you too my dear. (:

i was deciding whether or not i should blog because i am too tired after today's sentosa outing. anyway, many things have happened over the pass few days. i met so many new friends. they are all a bunch of fun people. camp was fabulous. be it FOC or my orientation camp. hmm, i have too many things in my head. i dont even know where to begin. oh gosh.

so we had sentosa outing today. it was a hell of fun although it was raining at the beginning. i swear the whole beach was infested with TP people. the guys were really nice, once i put down my bag, all of them carried me and throw me into the water. obviously i was drenched and not mentally prepared. i dont know why my skin is pretty red although the sun barely came out. hmmm, weird.

alright, so school starts tommorow. i cant wait! (: but time table is really packed and not forgetting, hard to read. i have really weird lecture timing. its ok, i guess i will learn to adapt soon enough. alright world, i am tired. time to hit the sack.

2006-04-11T08:47:00.000-07:00
ooooooooooooooo: haha. yupp. you got it. its that hair loss shampoo. i am balding. therefore... haha. nah, i was just kidding. and nope, i dont do treatment every week. i do it whenever i am free. heh. and how do you know i go for hair treatment?

PeiShan: haha. i realised i am mad too after what you told me the other day. oh mann.. haha.

Mitch: hey, yeah i'll link you as soon as i have the time.

someone: hey, welcome back. haha. yupp, i am getting along well now. all the best to you too. (=

gerald: ooooo, i love giving you hurtful remarks. haha. especially love seeing that expression on your face. and please dont forget you DO NOT OWN COFFEE BEAN! so please, dont laugh so loudly in public! tsk. haha. AND OH, THE NEXT TIME WE GO OUT, PREVENT FROM USING THAT SAME SMELL! UGH!

Narene: hello! haha. its a POWDERFUL wallet i've got there ok. haha.

I AM FINALLY BACK FROM MY WHAT SEEMED LIKE AN ETERNITY HOLIDAY. its good to be back. ((: caught up with gerald yesterday, and i had lotts of fun. really. though she made use of me again. she cheated me of my money. she got me to buy her a drink. haha. we joked, crapped and talked alot of cock. she was trying to hard to do my number puzzle, but obviously, with her brain size, she couldnt some out with anything. heh heh.

so, for the past ten days in indonesia, lets see what i've done... hmmm.. ROT! (wow and hooray, deedeemarini has been so productive this holiday.) ok la, maybe it was not that bad after all. at least i made a friend. haha. other than hanging out with my friends, and rotting, i did a little shopping. (aiya, my dad was forced to give me money to go shopping. because if he didnt, i would be sitting infront of his office desk complaining to him how bored i am.) oh yes, the next day after i touched down, my family had some chalet. i was not looking forward to it. reason being? NO COMPUTER. that makes life there even worst. aye, not only did I find it boring ok, my dad too. so he resorted to gambling! haha. ( he wasnt nice enough to include me in)

alright, enough of my complaints. so this week is going to be a busy week for me. POS training tommorow ( YAY, i cant wait) and then off to camp from thursday to saturday ( i am quite excited. heh) there was suppose to have POS today, but it was cancelled. they cheated my feeling. i thought i could take today's training to catch up on whatever i've missed. but they just had to cancell it. how nice.

alright, i am pretty tired, i'm going to bed soon. here are just some pictures that were taken in indonesia. THAT DREADFUL TEN DAYS.

2006-03-30T06:48:00.000-08:00
peng: AYE SUPERMAN! you just love suaning me right not. next time POS of you happen to be there as well, i'll go up and show you, the guy can lift me up without getting his hand injured. tsk. irritating la you.

gerald: i love you too porn star. it was nice meeting up with you today. (=

anon: no, i am using the white one. haha. thanks for commenting anyway. (=

i went to collect my baby today despite having a major muscle ache. oh, i finally own IT. its mine now and forever. haha. gerald was like," you siao ah, spend 300 on sucha wallet." but aiyah, i feel its all worth it. haha. ITS MINE NOW AND FOREVER. woohoo. i am a happy happy girl. so here are some pictures of how my new baby looks like:

ITS GREEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNN!
gerald accompanied me to collect the wallet with me from my friend. woo, my eyes was as big as dont know what when i saw my friend. her hair not ugly what. just very ugly and long only. **, GO CUT YOUR HAIR LA! tsk. you want to be rapunzel is it? haha. but anyhow, it was nice seeing her after so long. she said i gain weight! that was the last thing i wanna hear, really. haha. so yes, i allowed gerald to pour all her grievances out. and i hope she feels better. we took some prints, and here it goes:

we havent changed much have we? and the picture would be much nicer with tilynn in it. where is she? according to geraldine, still living in her own world. haha. but its ok, i will be able to see more of her when school starts. hooray. tilynn is coming to TP too! yay yay yay! i cant wait for camp. spending three days two nights with my buddy will just be the best thing. and not forgetting we can make new friends. yay. i am pretty excited. heh.
so i was talking to a friend of mine last night. he pointed out something that set me thinking. and i realise how true it is. he said i am always cheerful, not that its not good, but i got to learn to be serious at times too. i cant always take things so easily. there are certain issues that require us to be serious sometimes. so yeah, i will try to practice seriousness when the situation requires me to be.
i am heading for indo tommorow. kinda dreading it. =( ten LONG days. i do miss relatives back there but also dont have to go back for ten days ah. i hope mommy have a change of plan and decide to come back after a few days.

2006-03-29T06:48:00.000-08:00
xin: thanks. (= i love this song too. heh.

anon: haha. i use kerastase. why? i am between the range of 40-50. haha. why? do i look above 50? heh.

peishan: yupp. thats changi chalet. haha. its a super grand chalet. so big la. and yes my dear, i love you. haha.

here are two random pictures of me and my brother. presenting to you...

DEE DEE AND DEXTER!

he is fat and tanned. i am fat and white. what a difference. i wish i was as tanned as him. i laso dont know what he do everyday in school. dont know how come can get so tanned. cant be exercise ah. if its exercise, he wont be that fat. so must be sit outside under the scorching sun to look at girls. MUST BE. haha.

so i have been busy with POS these few days. but i am loving it. i made mnay mnay new friends. WOO! all from TP. hooray hooray. so when they saw me they ask me to be a flyer. but of course i told them i have no experience in flying altough i was a cheerleader in sec 4. still, they wanted to try me out. so i got up there. for the first time i was kinda shaky. but after that, i manage to stay up there firmly. WOO! it was a nice feeling to be up there. haha. but of course i prefered dancing la. so i became dancer instead. haha. but it was a great feeling to be surounded by guys waiting to catch you when you fall. WAHAHA! i was amazed that the guys can bring me up there withough their arms getting broken. heh.

so we learnt hip hop yesterday, and jazz today. hmmm, i kinda prefer jazz. there is more elegance to it. hip hop is more to the cool side. my body is aching la because of practices. but its alright la, its all worth it. i am having lots of fun. especially POS session with other schools like NYP. haha. i just love to ka-jiao them.

i remember one of my 2006 resolution is to be more involved in church, and hooray, i am glad i am walking on the correct path. (=

i can tell mommy's not really happy about me going for POS practices. i'll pray about it. hopefully she will be more open to church activities.

anyway to my dear geraldine leong:
i know exactly what you are going through. i wanna let you know, you are not alone. you alwyas have me to back you up. and please, its not the end of the world, though it feels like it. i've been through it and i know the feeling suckc. but please know there is nothing much you can do. pick yourself up from where you fell and show her you are better off without her. no worries porn star, i still love you as much. please cheer up.

2006-03-24T07:55:00.000-08:00

so those are the pictures for xiao xian's chalet. haha. and it also serves as an evidence i am a housewife material ok. i cann peel prawns. tiger prawn some more. dont pray pray. i also skinned the chicken. i was pretty amazed of myself too. i can actually do those stuffs. wow.

anyway, i will be cycling instead on monday. change of plan. pop my bubble only. i was so hopping i can go fishing. tsk. its ok. i will try to talk my friend out again. CYCLING= UTTER EMBARRASEMENT.

St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
hey.. mr mark misses u sia.. haahaa
★ for all these times. says:
haha
★ for all these times. says:
pls la
★ for all these times. says:
like he remembers me
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
yeah.. becoz that prom nite u too chio already.. haahaa
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
too bad he too old.. haahaa
★ for all these times. says:
wahaha
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
if only he 5 yrs younger and as handsome as me.. may still got chance.. muahahahaaa
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
got as much hair as i do oso.. haahaa
★ for all these times. says:
hahahahahahaha
★ for all these times. says:
wah
★ for all these times. says:
you are mean la
★ for all these times. says:
hahaha
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
muahahaaa... u 1st day noe me meh?
★ for all these times. says:
hahahahahahaah
★ for all these times. says:
you are super bad
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
anywae.. remember *******( name censored for privacy purposes)?
★ for all these times. says:
ya ya
★ for all these times. says:
whyy?
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
i tekan her
★ for all these times. says:
why?
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
she everyday has to report to me for her grooming
★ for all these times. says:
alamak
★ for all these times. says:
how come
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
u noe i gave more than 5 chances for her grooming..
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
last wed.. i caught her with detached belt sia..
★ for all these times. says:
wahh
★ for all these times. says:
terrible
★ for all these times. says:
i tell you a secret can lao shi?
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
ok
★ for all these times. says:
for the past 2 one and a half year in SJC my belt was all the way deteched
★ for all these times. says:
but no teacher caught me leh
★ for all these times. says:
i always get away
★ for all these times. says:
hahahaha
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
becoz.. u more chio den her mah
★ for all these times. says:
WAHHHH
★ for all these times. says:
LAO SHI
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
she always act cute.. dats why
★ for all these times. says:
HAHAHAHA
★ for all these times. says:
MEAN LEH YOU
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
u naturally cute
★ for all these times. says:
HAHAHAHAAHAAHAAH
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
u my favorite student mah..muahahaaa
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
pls lah..
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
wah lau
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
she always act lian buay lian
★ for all these times. says:
haha
★ for all these times. says:
so bad la.
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
some super lame
★ for all these times. says:
say something good about your student can or not
★ for all these times. says:
tsk
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
wanna act defiant oso dunno how
★ for all these times. says:
cannot show favouritism
★ for all these times. says:
as a teacher you have to play FAIR
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
haahaa.. no lah.. if she never do wrong i catch her for wad
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
honestly.. although i got favourite students.. but I always FAIR sia
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
so dats why u get away
St. Elizabeth, Viva de Champione! says:
muahahaaa

so the above shows how teachers can be so bitchy at times. they gossip too. haha. terrible la he. haha. but its nice talking to him after such a long time. i kinda miss my sec 2 days. he never fails to say " SU YI WEN, LAI LANG DU!" forever one loh. reason being, he wanna laugh at me. my passage reading is super cannot make it. and thats why he love to make me the joke of the day. how nice.

2006-03-23T06:33:00.000-08:00
someone: hey, thanks for your concern. (=

tilynn: haha. come on, dont talk about o level english anymore. its horroful man. i still cannot get over the fact i got C6 for english. how cheenapiang can i get? haha. and i am alright la. nothing can come between me and my hapiness. heh. once bitten twice shy. remember.

peishan: haha. yes GOH PEISHAN, i love you veli veli much. take care. i hope to see yuo around soon.

i have been a happy girl this few days. no more school for me. hooray. no more projects or whatsoever. and also not forgetting, i will be getting alot alot alot of my beauty sleep. i can finally get manicures without my nails being ruined because of making models. i will be fishing next week. (i hope.) haha. yay i cant wait. finally some interesting activities coming up.

daddy wont be coming this week. reason being, he is going to penang to have some badminton competition. i was like " so old already play what badminton la." haha. so i hope when daddy is not around, i can get some shopping done with mommy. i hope mommy will be in a good mood. i seriously need to re-stock my wardrobe.

and i miss geraldine leong shiok kheng. so you nehnhepok, faster faster come back from china la. stay there longer and see how you turn into one of them. dont forget you are already being called a CHINA BAO in school. so yes, fatser come back you idiot.

counting down in exactly 8 more days, i will be getting my green wallet. hooray. i have finally saved enough money for it. oh finally a reunion with my baby. haha. HOORAY HOORAY!

deedee marini is looking for a job. ANYONE WANTS TO HIRE ME? if you are rich/ handsome, i dont mind being your personal assistant. feel free to contact me. HAHA.

2006-03-20T08:00:00.000-08:00
XXXXXXXXXXX: no no no. we will do the comparison at the end of the year. must give time to exercise what. haha. i am not going to be in the list. heh heh.

i feel so terrible now, i want to cry. =( my turning is turning so much i feel like throwing up. why oh why. i knew this day was going to come. but i never knew its gonna be today. i feel so ~!@#$% now. i promise after today, i wont make myself feel so !@#$% again. ARGH! so annoying.

i was talking to a friend of mine just now. and i was telling him if i could have anything 2 things in the world, i would wish for money and _________. =D yes i know i sound materialistic. but come on, be realistic who can ever survive out there in the real world with money. with money you can get almost everything and everything you want. well maybe except certain things like happiness and love. but still, money makes the world go around. is money the root of all evil? i dont think so. money is a freaking non living thing, so how can it be evil. but the GREED for money maybe. we as human beings are never contented with what we have. so.. the story goes.

and i was speaking to my another friend about my bad experience two nights ago. it wasnt the first time i experienced the same incident. and i experienced not once, not twice but many many times. two nights ago was the same incident, but its just worst. so my friend told me to pray about it. and i definitely will. after speaking to him, i never knew he has got this mature side of him. i am pleasently surprised. haha. but yeah i still feel kinda disturbed about this whole thing. i told my mom about it. she just kept quite. OH WELL. =(

2006-03-18T08:05:00.000-08:00
HOW ADORABLE DOES HE WANNA GET?

i think i am the kiasu-est person in the world. why? cause i am on of the last to receive my package but one of the earliest to submit the enrolment form back. i am one kanchiong spider. so damien has last minute inform me that his dad is going to send him overseas instead. how nice. now i know nobody with the same course me. so let me ask the world, ANYONE DOING INTERIOR DESIGN IN TP? WANT TO MAKE FRIENDS? haha. oh boy, i am that pathetic.

church for me tommorow. hooray. i cant wait. why? because brother mark will be on stage singing. he is the hottest thing. alright maybe not the hottest, maybe cutest. heh.

and oh, recently i've fallen in love all over again with my one and only travis barker. he IS the HOTTEST thing. HOT HOT HOT. SIZZLING HOT. who can ever resist such temptation you tell me. his wife is just the luckiest thing in the world. and did i mention? his son is sooooo cute. SO CUTE. but he will be cuter if he's half asian. =D

projects piling up. i for once am doing my homework during the weekends. worst come to worst, if i cant complete all i ma going to leave one out. free hand drawing is so not important la. i dont mind flunking that class. but the rest i still think i better complete la.

i went for medical check up on friday and i realise, i've shrunk! not forgetting, i gain weight! oh no. i am going to be short and fat. =( thats bad. hurr.

2006-03-15T10:11:00.000-08:00
so i havent been updating i realise. i'm pretty busy with school work nowadays. all projects to be handed in by next week and i am not even halfway through it yet. thats just spells B-A-D. if i really cant hand in by next week, i am planning not to go school on the day itself. but... i'll feel terrible. aiyah, we'll see how. i still have 65 sketches to do by monday. how many have i done? hmmm lets see, 3? hooray dee dee marini

i recieved the package today. like finally. i've been waiting for it for ages. i was getting nervous when many people come telling me they have already received theirs ages ago. the school require us to go for some medical check up ( i hope there's no blood test though.) and i have to arrage a date with that porn partner of mine. see when that royalty is free.

i am kinda excited about new school. i hope TP is a school that requires you to be in school like 3/4 of your time. so i can just MIA from the whole wide world. 3/4= school, 1/4= my beauty sleep. oh i hope damien dont get his appeal ( i know i am mean but....) cause if he gets his appeal i wont have any friends that are going to the same course as me. which is terrible. i dont mind making new friends, but, i'll probably get the firstdayofschoolphobia.

i wanna see geraldine leong shiok kheng and tilynn low chu xiang soon. =( i miss them a whole lot. their nonsense and company. I MISS THE OLD DAYS. its weird but i dont know why i suddenly miss mrs. angie ong. memories memories memories.

i learn one thing from the past few weeks. people will open up to you if you open up to them first. and i am glad i learn something more about these people. and some things i found out even amazes me. its like getting to know a whole new person. which is good. that means i've found a key to their heart. (=

no one has ever complained about my boy-craze habit. its just normal for deedee marini to just go gooogooogaga about a cute guy. is there anything wrong? i dont think so. you cant expect me to keep cool and calm when a steaming hot guy stands infront of me. i have been drooling about hot people since i dont remember when. and if anyone were to ask me to change my habit overnight, i am sorry, but i cant do it. THATS ME! LOVE ME FOR ME.

2006-03-06T18:55:00.000-08:00
UGH!!!

2006-03-04T05:15:00.000-08:00

XXXXXXXXXXX: haha. whats his/ her name? and tell him/her about me! so he/ she can pay extra attention to me! WAHAHAHA. and, where is our steamboat session?

narene: haha! what a pleasent surprise to see sir here!

gerald: yes, tp here we come. haha. and please you know you deserve someone 847546551545646974515646515165415646165168165132161651564564156156451561615616188681618616818616116516516161616816468546846464844641 better. so please, move on love.

i am here to proclaim that i love my daddy very very very much. why? because... he bought me a new shoes! hooray! this is the VERY FIRST TIME daddy bought me something before consulting my mom. haha. so i was just trying my luck. i asked casually," daddy, i want a new shoes." and i thought his reaction will be like chinese new year just buy new shoes now buy again. but nope he was like," buy loh. just show me which one." i was like," WHOA!" haha. so yes, i am a happy girl. A BRAND NEW SHOES!

so while walking along heeren, i was approached by one of the contestant for cleo's 2006 bachelor to sample the coffe he made. and so, being the nice me, i sampled it. and in return he gave me lovely beautiful flowers. ( ok la, so not only me, but all the others that he approached.) but what more can i say? HE IS SO HOT! HOT! HOT! HOT! actually it was this other contestant who approched me first. but obviously being the usual me, i cant resist his temptation, so i accepted his coffee instead. haha. who ask the second one to be so hot la. not my fault i chose to handsome-er one. =D
and oh, let me show you my future car. its already waiting for me. just imagine the car in the picture to be green. and voila, its mine. haha.

so now i am already stressed. by the last week of march, i have to complete 4 final projectss.
free-hand drawing- 65 sketches and a one point perspective of a room on an A3 size paper.
ID principle and theory- a model pavillion and a research book.
cultural studies- a surrealism painting of myself. ( so she think i am frida kahlo la.)
drafting- a floor plan, ceiling plan, 4 elevations and an axonometric drawing of a room.
HOORAY TO DEEDEE MARINI! SHE HAS SO MANY THINGS TO COMPLETE! SHE IS SO HAPPY, SHE IS OVER THE MOON! UGH! being the usual me, i will probably do last minute work. but look at the amount of homework. how to LAST MINUTE? please, shoot me.

2006-03-02T06:06:00.000-08:00
gearld: ah yes! a brand new life we will be looking forward to. but after hearing that my friend got into his 9th choice, i am not so sure TP is where i will be leh. OH NO! if i were to end up in some course i dont like i'll just probably fly off some where else la. haha.

beryl: AYE, no loh! dee dee marini will never again die of heart break. one is bad enough. haha.

r'ai: dee dee is fine! =D haha. we'll meet up soon yeah? take care.

i have been deprived of my beauty sleep this few weeks. it was last wednesday, then now, last night. i slept only at 7 this morning. project is giving me nuts. and what i am rushing is not even the final project yet. my goodness. my mom woke up this morning saying," wah someone so hardworking ah, so early wake up do homework already!" i was like," mom, i didnt even get to sleep, how to wake up?" so this was what killed my sleep.

oh another thing, remember the model i made the other time? so i got back the results. and i must say, i am quite pleased with my grades considering its a last minute thing. haha. i got a wonderful 73% HOORAY! haha. i am going to do better for my final project hoping it will pull up the overall to at least 80%. so of my friends were like whatever for works your guts out when you are going to stop at the end of the term. but i was thinking, since i chose what i want to do, i have to do it right. so no matter what it takes, i'll completer my work. properly.

tommorow is the posting of schools. and i am quite scared. =/ i have friends who got posted to his ninth choice. and thats bad. what if i get posted to my 12th choice to do the course i anyhow pick? like that jialat la.

2006-02-25T23:24:00.000-08:00
GOODBYE WORLD.

2006-02-21T06:57:00.000-08:00
gerald: hannar. i will support your decisions la ALTHOUGH you made use of me today. come my house to only use computer and play maple. SOME MORE make me download maple just for you. quite nice what you.

pei shan: aye, sarah hoe wasnt drunk loh. haha. she was wide awake. heh heh. go be a mahjong pro then you can teach me how to play.

peng: YOU ARE THE LOUSIEST SUPERMAN ALIVE LA! dont even know how to navigate my blog. haha. dont make me reveal your deepest darkest secret ( STINK BOMB. heh heh) and you are crappy-er loh. NONSENSICAL. you die! i am going to show the whole world your ugly worthless drawing. haha.

i am finally done with my project that i was so busy with the whole day. and because of it, my whole hand is filled with super glue. so, geraldine came over today, supposedly to borrow my roller blades. but dont know why end up playing maple at my place. she even made me download the whole full version just for her to play. not only that. she treats my place like her own ahh. no shame one you know not. ate so much longans already still complain ah. haiyoo. so she was busy maple-ing while i was stressing on my project. by the time she was satisfied, i was almost done with my project.

i spent ALMOST the whole day crapping with my new found friend, MR. LAOYAPOK SUPERMAN. someone whom i can argue with FOR EVER. no ending to our arguments i tell you. haha. and he claims his drawing is worth billions. i was like " ya la, billions, in rupiah" haha. so let me show the whole world his worthless pieces of art.

see what i mean..
i was talking to my teacher the other day telling him about my grades. and he thinks its such a waste for me to do interior design when i can actually persue other things with my As in maths and science. so, that got me thinking. hmmmm.

2006-02-18T07:20:00.000-08:00

XX: haha. yes, nice atmosphere we were in. it got us into the mood of reading the bible. so, staying in innova or going to NYJC instead?

rina: YES! CHEENAPOK like you! jialat la rina. how? haha.

r'ai: IT FEELS SO WEIRD TO CALL YOU R'AI or even REN AI. i still prefer calling you nikk. haha. HOW?

beryl: WHY? if i dig a hole and bury my face.. then wont that make my face dirty? =(

gerald: OH YOU REMEMBERED MY EXISTENCE! tsk. I STILL HATE YOUR DUMB DECISION. ME AND TILYNN IS SUPER DISSAPOINTED IN YOU!

so, i have decided to update this one week dead blog. things are going pretty fine for me. (= actually the reason i have decided to blog is because, i want to embar sarah hoe! haha. lets see what she said to me a few minutes ago.

`skye; that close to perfection. ]] says:
ok lah i have decided
you make my world go around. says:
uh huhhhhhhhhhhhh
`skye; that close to perfection. ]] says:
i am going to woo DEE DEE MARINI
`skye; that close to perfection. ]] says:
hahahahha!
you make my world go around. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAAHAHHAAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHHA
`skye; that close to perfection. ]] says:
settled.
you make my world go around. says:
I AM SO GONNA PUT THAT ON MY BLOG
you make my world go around. says:
YOU DIE!
`skye; that close to perfection. ]] says:
no worries already
`skye; that close to perfection. ]] says:
OMG
you make my world go around. says:
HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
you make my world go around. says:
YOU ARE DEAD
`skye; that close to perfection. ]] says:
no non o

i have a final project to hand in on wednesday. am i half way through? far from it. haha. so, DIE LOH. TP interior design was my first choice. i hope i get in. if i am posted to some other school to do some other thing, i think i rather fly off to US ahh. looks like, i've already made up my mind on what i want to do in life. (= and i am proud of myself. i finally know where i am heading to next time. i am slowly planning my future. at leadt right now, i have a direction.

daddy's in town. finally! i have not seen him for almost two weeks. and mommy is going back to indo next saturday! hooray! thats spells FREEDOM.

2006-02-11T06:59:00.000-08:00
i had dinner with my family supposedly to celebrate me and my cousin's result. but obviously, there's nothing to be proud of for me. i did horribely bad. i did not expect myself to get that low. i seriously expected more from myself. but oh well i guess thats the grade God thinks i deserve. so, i'll have to learn to accept it. i am quite happy for my maths and science though. so here are the break downs

English- C6 ( yes, its unbelievable. i have no idea why so low too)
Chinese- C5
Emaths-A1
Amaths-A2
Science-A1
Humanes-B3

haha. lousy marks. but aiyah, its english i am disappointed in la. even my chinese is better?!? oh no, this just means one thing, i am becoming more and more cheena-pok. and thats not good. argh! i have somewhat made up my mind on where i want to go. most probably it will be TP doing interior design. my mom was really mad when she heard about my marks. i really feel i've let her down. =( i'm a bad daughter. but its alright, i'll be more hardworking from now on, and do her proud. (=

from now on, i'll entrust God with my future, and i am sure he will bring me to wherever he thinks i should be.

For I know the thoughts that I think towards you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not evil, to give you FUTURE and hope.
Jeremiah 29:11

2006-02-08T05:13:00.000-08:00
anonymous: nope, i am from st. anthony's primary school.

anonymous: what a weird question, but yes i am.

the very FIRST photograph taken in history.

i had cultural studies today. and we were learning about Romanticism. My lecturer was showing us slides of the different art pieces during 1800-1900. And i particularly like this one. Its drawn by Francisco Goya, a spanish artist. If i dont remember wrongly, its called " Satan devoiring his children". haha. cool eh. i come to realise that cultural studies is not that bad after all if you listen attentively in class.

something i found while reading my previous posts:

07/12/2005:
i have been thinking alot lately. and i mean alot. and i realise i dont know where i am heading to. i have no direction at all. and this feeling is even worst than the last one. i should have known it was all a mistake. this whole ********** thing is really getting me upset, and depressed. love is all about sacrificing, i learn today. ( maybe?) seriously, i tried la. =(when are things gonna turn a-ok for me? i prayed to god to seek help. i did pray ok. i really did turn to him for a solution. i guess i'll just wait patiently?after sentosa, we all walked around town. my leg was seriously aching ok. i think i am getting old. hmmm, what else happened? aiyah i dont know la. no mood to think now. so bye world.

today, 08/02/2006 i am here to testify that GOD does listen to one's prayer.

mommy's back. urgh.

2006-02-06T09:37:00.000-08:00
anonymous: raffles design institute.

ITS CONFIRMED! RESULTS WILL BE OUT THIS FRIDAY ( 10TH FEB) AT 2.30 PM! I AM REALLY NERVOUS BUT EXCITED AT THE SAME TIME. I AM HOPING IT WILL BE THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE. HAHA.

homeworks are piling up! i have a report plus 15 drawings due on wednesday and 8 drawings plus scale drafting due on thrsday. tell me how la. i hope i have the mood fot it tommorow. i gotta start. i sure cant do last minute work one can. so many! argh! stress la.

i was a nurse for a day. (:

2006-02-04T06:49:00.000-08:00

beryl: WHERE GOT DISGUSTING! =(

anonymous: hmm, what overseas photo?

rusty fan: nope i got it from indo.

anonymous: my hair is so short you ask if i had hair extensions? haha.

so it was chingay for two consecutive days. i swear i'll never wear the killer heels ever again. =( i've got to ugly, huge, painful blisters on my feet. and because of that second day wasnt that great for me. i had to bare the standing up for long hours plus people bumping into me plus smelly odour plus PEOPLE STEPPING ON MY FEET! ( argh, my blisters!) the only reason i went for chingay today was because of strikeforce. if it weren't for them, i will be home sleeping and resting my poor legs.

so i had only 4 hours sleep last night, then early in the morning i went to school. i looked like a zombie. then, i headed home to had a short 2 hours nap. and then i headed to town to catch chingay. i got there at 6, hoping to stand infront. who knows it was so packed by then. so i was some where in the middle. and i cant believe some people are so inconsiderate. they got there late but yet they force their way through infront. so it was a total of 4 hour standing up session with rain then shine. my legs almost broke. but it was all worth it. cause strikeforce was FANTABULOUS! they were super energetic. i didnt regret standing there for 4 hours just to catch them. haha. i ran all the way from heeren to centrepoint just to get a picture of prince of arab, but then, i took only his back view. and its not that clear cause i was very far back.

i headed home after that. i hope my leg gets better by tommorow. what am i saying, OF COURSE IT WILL GET BETTER BY TOMMOROW. haha. and this is what i mean when i say, my leg hurts.

THE BEST PART OF CHINGAY! PRESENTING TO YOU, STRIKEFORCE:

oh jess wanted me to blog telling the whole world that we are fated. cause i keep seeing her this few days. it was chingay first, then i saw her on tv mobile. then chingay again today! wahaha.

2006-02-02T07:32:00.000-08:00
ITS NICE SEEING THEM WORK SO HARD

THEY ALL LOOK SO HARDWORKING. DONT THEY?

BUSY MAN NO.1 AND BUSY MAN NO.2

I LOVE THIS!

SOMEONE ACT STRONG ONLY!

SEE.. I TOLD YOU! BUSY MAN NO.1!

I HELPED!
BY DOING THESE! =D

BUSY MAN NO.2! ( still trying very hard to act strong!)

A POOR PATIENT HAVING HIS MEAL. HAHA!

I WAS HORRIBLY, CRUELY TORTURED!

HE IS SOO CLEAN! ( alamak, i know this is so random la, but he doesnt stink, surprisingly!)

I WISHED I HAD A BOTTLE OF CHILLI SAUCE THEN!

2006-02-01T02:31:00.000-08:00
THESE ARE THE REASONS I LOVE SCHOOL!

THESE ARE THE REASONS WHY I LOVE CHINESE NEW YEAR SOO MUCH! (other than the money!)

SO I AM BACK IN SINGAPORE! when i reached last night at about 11+, i rushed my project like mad. although i finished like 98% of my project in indo, i still stay up to 2 to complete it. this morning i was like a morning zombie. haha.

anyway, chingay on fri and saturday! please, all those who are free, GO DOWN TO SUPPORT! strikeforce will be performing. and oh, i found out reid dislocated his arm. poor thing.

school for me tommorow again! yay! but no yay to the project i have to hand in tommorow! argh! i havent even started with the border yet. how am i going to draw the scale! rush rush rush again.

dear God,
please help me make the right decision and guide me through. i dont want the same mistake to be repeated again. this time, i give my everything to you. hold my hand, and lead me to happiness. i entrust my whole life to you!
love, your child.

commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him. and he shall bring it to pass. he shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, And your justice as the noonday
PSALM 37:5-6

2006-01-24T06:52:00.000-08:00
I MISS THIS BUNCH OF PEOPLE. =(

other than that.. I AM A HAPPY GIRL. I AM OVER THE SKY/MOON/STARS/CLOUDS. I HAVE GOT SCHOOL TOMMOROW! LALALALA!

2006-01-21T07:20:00.000-08:00
anonymous: thanks! (=

anonymous2: thanks for commenting!

peishan: looking vain? I LEARNT THAT FROM YOU! haha. anyway, you are missed by me too. see you around.

MY DIGI CAM IS WORKING AGAIN! woohoo. i am a happy girl. i can snap more and more pictures. haha. i had dinner with my family just now. i realised i am really blessed because it's really rare to have one whole BIG family going out for dinner that often. we have that bond that not many others have! and i really thank God for it.

before that, i had lunch with my paternal granparents. (= [ i told you i am really close to my gramps. especially my dad's parents.] and after lunch, my grandma gave me some cash to do chinese new year shopping! praise God! $$$ KA-CHINGG! even though its not that much, i am still grateful cause if it weren't for the money i think i would only have 2 new year clothes. i am hunting for dress for chinese new year eve's dinner. where can i get nice dress? SHOPPING SOON ****** ****? i doubt so.

church for me tommorow! yay! i finally manage to convince my mom to come to church. this time, she actually ask me if she can come. i was like " I AM NOT DREAMING RIGHT?" other times, i had to bug her to come. God really does wonder in one's life.

i have many projects to be due soon la! !#%&*^$ i have yet to start! i hope is not some last minute work la.

* *** ****** ***, * ****** *** ***. *** * ****** ***** **. * ** *****. * **** *** ** ***** ** **** *** **** ********. **** ** ****? * ****** **** ***!

2006-01-19T07:23:00.000-08:00
beryl: I REPEAT ONE MORE TIME! I DID NOT GO PARAGON ALONE! haha. i was really with my family la. and those people i pointed at were really my family members. haha. why would i lie to you la. and anyway, SOMEONE BECOMING MORE AND MORE SEXY AH.. WEE OH WEET. haha.

anonymous: thank you for your compliments. (= and i am not skinny. really. my heaight is 159 cm whereas my weight, i dont wish to disclose it on a public blog. haha. anyway, you are?

OH YAY! I AM DOUBLY HAPPY TODAY! I SAW MR. HANDSOME BOY NO.1 AND MR. HANDSOME BOY NO.2! weee.. i was in the same lift as mr. handsome boy no.1 today. and plus i saw him after school again. he made my day la. haha. i saw mr. handsome boy no.2 in the lounge, i realise he is always there every thursday with his laptop. woo.

anyway, i caught cheaper by the dozen 2 today. it was ok la. maybe a little humorous. anyway, through out the whole mobie i was complaining about hilary duff. djhkshskhfjhs she was super ugly la. ( i mean no offence to her fans) she was so skinny, her teeth look fake, and she is FLAT! aiyah, everything looks wrong on her. she looks so much better last time.

and so i was back home about 11+. mom wasnt pretty happy but she didnt nag! thank God. she just reminded me that i am a girl and that i should learn to be more responsible. looks like my mom is slowly giving me my freedom, but of course it comes with great responsibility.

2006-01-18T07:31:00.000-08:00
gerald: aye, i am surprised you put your name under gerald and not martin-i. haha. anyway, yes. it is the first week of feb. and anyway i should be worrying more cause i will get back the results faster than you by a few minutes! haha.

anonymous: i dont know if you both are of the same person. but i'll just answer both of you together. nope. i didnt straighten my hair and yes, i had braces when i was in sec 1. haha. ugly duckling.

anyway, i am so sad now. my digital camera is spoilt! anyone has any idea where to repair it? =(( i cant live without my camera. i need them to snap this and that! argh! or maybe i should just save money/ wait for chinese new year to get a new one.

i have many many projects piling up. i dont even know where to begin. research is driving me nuts. and oh, i saw mr. hamsum boy no.1 today! heh heh. i was in the lift and he was waiting for the lift. so i didnt know he was just outside waiting to come in. whereas i was waiting to get out of the lift. i happen to be laughing like some mad dog when the door open. and TAA DAA i was face to face with him. he seriously gave me a shock. and i cant belive he saw that unglam side of me! haha. you should see that stunned face of mine. =D

i feel like having teh-peng all of a sudden.

2006-01-17T08:56:00.000-08:00
SPECIAL THANKS TO THOSE WHO LOVE MY HAIR! i am starting to like it too. haha. and from now on, i am only gonna keep nice comments. no horrible comments are going to affect how i feel about how my hair.

LOVE YOURSELF!

2006-01-17T06:19:00.000-08:00
Narene: yes, now that you have my full time table, please find time for poor maria. she is waiting for sir to take her around singapore. =D we've known each other for almost 2 years, but WE HAVE YET TO MEET! my goodness. this is super pathetic. haha..

Darren: thanks for leaving a message. haha. i sure do hope you could wake up this morning.

anon: thanks! i had my hair cut at wisma atria at the salon called The Scene. and oh, its cut by michael, in case you want to know. (=

i went shopping shopping shopping today! haha. I AM SO HAPPY+ HYPER. i didnt really do much shopping. but just walking around trying clothes with my small aunt made my day. i finally got something to wear for chinese new year. YAYY ME!

before that i went back to sjc. poor gerald. she woke up so early just to go to school, but got chased out. the teacher couldnt let her in cause of her hair. i realise, i do miss my old school. and and and i saw EVONNE KOH! =DDD. and many other teachers as well. i see many many of my old school mates too. and i am GLAD i am not this year's sec one batch. cause poor them, they have to wear their uniform with their belts fully sown to their uniform. haha. I BET IT WAS ALL THANKS TO US. we gave the teachers so much problem with our low belts that they decide to solve the problem once and for all. haha.

then i went to look for miss yeo. last week was this year's sec 4's CIP. and they did exactly what we did last year. which was going around collecting old books/magazine/newspaper. and miss. yeo was in charge of this class who was suppose to be collecting the stuff from this particular block of flat. and what a coincidence, it was the same block of flat we were in charge of last year. and of course, she got emotional cause all the old memories of us being there just came back to her. yes, our class were that close to our form teacher. anyway,
to all 2005 O LEVEL CANDIDATE:
PLEASE BE INFORMED THAT O LEVEL RESULTS WILL MOST PROBABLY COME OUT ON THE FIRST WEEK OF FEBRUARY. ( this is from a very reliable source. my form teacher.) SO ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO ARE OUT OF SINGAPORE EITHER FOR A HOLIDAY OR BACK AT THEIR HOMETOWN, PLEASE BE BACK BY THEN! ( i have no idea why i am saying all these. haha. miss yeo just ask me to inform the rest. so ya la, the easiest way is like this.)

one of the reason why i went back to school was because i miss the canteen food! and i didnt get very pleasant remark from my all time favourite drink stall auntie. haha. she said: " AIYO.. ni ye lai ye piao liang le horr.. ( i was super happy when i heard this but come the next sentence..) ni ye pang le. zhe yang geng hao.. more chubby. ( wah, faints and die.)" although she made me sad, its ok, i still love auntie sally. haha. she makes the best chin chao in the whole wide world. really.

FB, PDGUOM. CTWBTWTTCEHTM. INYMS. AISNYAMAE. GMAC. MTWBTBSSTICFH.

2006-01-16T08:14:00.000-08:00
TRUST ME WHEN I SAY, YOU ARE HORRIBLE!
THAT SOFT SPOT WILL HAVE TO GO! you are suppose to be at your furthest point from step one, dee dee.

2006-01-16T00:16:00.000-08:00

I RESORT TO DODDLING WHEN I AM BORED IN CLASS.

sorry for the not so glam picture of us when we were younger. haha.

i feel all emotional after reading gerald's blog. i do miss my school days ALOT. i've been so busy thinking how fun it is at my present school that i actually forgot that i do have a memorieable time with my friends.

i remember always being so competitive in maths class. i must be first in everything. haha. you know the KIASU kind. i miss having lessons with tilynn and geraldine. solving maths sums together, and see-ing the expression on their face whenever i solved the sum first. i also miss english lesson where me and geraldine will be either listening to the radio/ munching our food away/ disturbing one another. and i also remember me+ gerald is always teasing tilynn about her certain someone. WAHAHA. and her face will go ALL RED.

then comes PE lesson. i remembered training with tilynn for 2.4 km. gerald will be the timer cause of her knee injury. the kiasu us keep on running and running just to make sure we are ahead of the others. and whenever i am lagging behind, tilynn will alwyas give me words of encouragement.

and i remember the beginning of last year being the most emotional period of my life. they were the ones there for me ( and the others too). i remember just sitting down in a maths class and do nothing. and in the middle of the lesson, i will just start crying. haha. and i remember the SHOCK look on their face. ahaha. they also have seen the worst side of me., where i will just try to do silly things to myself without thinking twice.

another two important people in my life was rese and beryl. the DEE RYL and RESE. i remember my first few conversation with beryl was in e-maths class. and i will just ask beryl random questions till she gets irritated with me. haha. beryl and her ," you KIAM PA ah.." the three of us were just the gossip mongers i tell you. then it was rese and her toy dinosaur she got from burger king. its called ** **! and her toy dinosaur only knows how to walk backwards. haha. and and and i rememeber the pen WATER GUN! haha. i miss those times really. =(

2006-01-15T06:37:00.000-08:00
lance: yes its been quite sometimes since i last saw you. BOWLING session soon please. the other time you didnt get much chance to laugh at me and my longkangs. so, lets organise an outing soon! miss you!

anonymous & anonymous2: thank you very much for the lovely compliment. (=

i caught derailed today. and i give it four out of 5 stars. haha. everyone should catch it. even thought its NC16, all those who are below 16 should try to sneak in or something. cause its really worth your 9.50. i mean, personally, i loved it. its a never-expected ending. so, guys, GO CATCH DERAILED! haha.

school for me tommorow. i have yet to complete my homework. and the worst thing is, i am feeling all lazy now. and its my FIRST homework assignment to be handed up. how to leave good impression like this? nevermind. i just hope that i will have some motivation later.

anyway, MY HANDPHONE ALARM DIDNT RING THIS MORNING! why? cause it was low batt, so it auto-offed. it made me miss a great service. i need a personal manual alarm clock to wake me up.

today's moon was especially round and bright!

2006-01-14T06:32:00.000-08:00
i am back from the bbq. haha, well i felt pretty weird at first. because everyone there was like alien to me. never actually seen them before in my whole entire life. but it took me only awhile to adapt to them. which is cool. haha. meet many new friends. ALL INDONESIAN! never in my life have i actually hanged out with so many indo kids. i felt like an alien actually. cause i am so different from all of them. the way i dress/ behave/ speak is a total opposite from them. when i open my mouth to speak they could tell at once i was in sinagpore for quite sometimes already. but i had fun la. after the bbq, my friends and i headed to ikea. hoping to find drafting table. but no luck. so walked around, snaped photos. i cant believe i am home so early on the day when my parents actually allow me to stay out till late.

2006-01-13T09:25:00.000-08:00

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2006-01-11T06:21:00.000-08:00
i'm beginning to love schools. =D thats good actually. haha. lessons are pretty ok. its something really new to me. no more maths or science. no more getting stuck at a paticular sum. but, i kinda like this new environment. haha. and i met this handsome guy while waiting for the lift. and i didnt know he was an indon too. so i happily tell my friends how cute he is. and when we were in the lift, he opened his mouth to talk to his friend, and there goes my face! ARGH! haha. but he's hot. nevermind. that was only one guy. there was another hot one. saw him after school. haha. not sure if he was an indon, cause he didnt really open his mouth to talk. so.. that was basically it at school today. it was just mr. hamsum no.1 and mr. hamsum no.2.

both had tattoos on their body too. but.. we shouldnt judge a book by its cover, right? heh heh.. so, now, i have something to look forward to in school. their not my batch of people though. should be one year my senoir la. and we got the list of things we have to buy today. and, i realised, i will have to spend thousands on just material itself. the table already cost 400+. not yet plus text book. aiyah, waste money la, serious. haha.

i have no idea why, but, I AM IN A SUPER HYPER MOOD NOW! lalala. SCHOOL FOR ME TOMMOROW!

2006-01-10T09:07:00.000-08:00

Your Life Path Number is 1
Your purpose in life is to lead others.
You have great drive and determination. Nothing is going to stand in your way.You seek out challenges and the spotlight. You'll take all the work - and all the glory.Status and success are important to you. You demand the best from everyone and everything.
In love, you tend to take a protective role. You enjoy being the provider in relationships.
You expect others to be like you, and as a result, you are often disappointed.A little selfish and vain, you always put yourself first.Remember, everyone already knows you're great - you don't need to remind them!
What Is Your Life Path Number?

2006-01-10T06:51:00.000-08:00

school was fun! i spent the whole day drawing. i met many many friends. mainly indonesian though. almost three quarter of them are indonesian. so my class aint that pathetic after all. there are about 12 students. at first i feel kind of awkward. a total different environment, but i guess, later during the day, it was not that bad after all. all the friends i am hanging with is all indonesian. so, i was basically conversing in bahasa the whole day. not really used to it. but i guess i'll learn to adapt. haha. first day was kinda slack. i only had two lessons. and it was free hand drawing. before that was a boring speech by the principal.

tommorow will be a long day. lessons are from 10-6. i hope i will pull through. haha. i am still looking forward to making more and more friends. my classmates are people from all over the world. india, us, vietnam, china, malaysia. my goodness. but mostly indonesia. i got to go school all by myself tommorow. i will take an MRT. i wont give in to temptation and take the cab. i need to save money badly.

valentine's day is in a months time. NOT looking forward to it. (=

2006-01-06T07:29:00.000-08:00
sometimes i feel i am all alone in this world. whatever happens to " we'll never drift and will keep this friendship going." aren't friends suppose to be there for you at your darkest moment? where are you when i need you most? you aren't quite the same old you anymore. things have change. she's all you think about now. where is my bestfriend? where is that friend i share everything with? where is that friend who used to lend me a shoulder to cry on? sometimes i wonder whether you say you miss me just for the sake of saying it. your life only revolves between one thing right now. and i am tired of trying to keep this bond strong. what hurt me most is, you actually put someone who has been in and out of your life over someone who has been in your life all these while giving you a moral encouragement. so now i see it all. maybe you should know, it takes both hands to clap. and this friendship is not going to last if i am the only one trying.

2006-01-05T07:57:00.000-08:00
SO NOW, I'VE HEARD! O LEVEL RESULTS WILL BE OUT MID FEB! THATS LIKE AMONTHS TIME! I'M SCARED! SO SCARED I THINK I AM GONNA PEE IN MY PANTS RIGHT NOW! ARGH! THE HORROR!

will ms.yeo say,"dee, i am so proud of you. you did it!"?

2006-01-05T06:38:00.000-08:00
sean: haha. happy new year to you too! and the pencil box is something i really like currently. (=

sherina: haha. i agree with you. that paris hilton perfume smells great. haha. you've got one yourself?

lewis: BOO you too! thanks for commenting anyway.

today was spent watching dvd after dvd. oh no, i cant continue on like this. i am getting lazier and lazier. and its really band. and last night, someone managed to convince me. I AM FAT! i got to lose some weight la please. and that someone make me realise i have real odd body shape too. but thats ok, AT LEAST I CAN FIT INTO POLO TEE NICELY. =D

give me the chance to show you what i am made of, not to judge me of face value or by the impressions that you've formed. i'm withdrawing as much as i want to pour my being out to you.

emotion is something i have yet to learn to take control of. sometimes being persistent may result to a worse effect than if u had just let go and pursue other goals. so, as hard and as painful as it may be, i'll learn to let go off certain things that i believe i could have done but i'll be stronger than ever to pursue my new goals.

i've been hiding behind my gifts
i give until it starts to rip
the skin is torn where i begin
the thread is worn and might give in
underneath it all i feel the eyes
of all the things that i despise
can i fight them off with sticks and stones?
can i fight them off alone?
now i'm thinking about my own advice
if i could soothe myself it might be nice
calling names ain't the same no more
took a look and locked that door
memories and cold hard facts
watched it all come rushing back
all the times i told you what to do
all the times i thought i knew