DEE DEE;

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
Eyes can be blinded
That when the lights are off something's killing me
I know it seems like people care
When they say goodbye
Cause they're always around me
But when the day is done,everybody runs
Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
When the show is over
And it's empty everywhere
It's hard to face going back alone
So I walk around the city
Anything, anything to clear my head
I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home
It may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing
When the ride that you've been on
That you're coming off
Leaves you feeling lost
Is anybody out there
Does anyobdy see
That sometimes loneliness is a part of me

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

i suddenly have the urge to go to the zoo.
yes i know i complained that the place is smelly,
but i dont know,
all of a sudden i fell like going there.
hmmm, the memories i guess.
i was a fucking happy girl that day.
i remembered that was the day
i received that very first letter.
its amazing how the content of it can make me smile like one dumb fuck.
and i remember exactly four months ago,
i talked to you on the phone for the first time.
you were at your friend's chalet.
i was entertaining you.
i doubt you remembered it anyway.
i miss those days.
i really do.

second day of work was a horror for me.
everyone pushed piles and piles of work to me.
no break at all.
all i had was a lunch break.
how pathetic.
i am falling sick
my throat hurts.
my back is breaking.
and i am having a slpiting headache.
its okay.
i will perservere.

Could be your eyes, could be your smile.
Could be the way you freed my mind..
Your precious touch caressed my soul.
You gave me everything I need, and now I'm lost.
Lost forever.
Please give me one more try for the sake of our love.
Let's give it one more chance cause i cant give you up.
I cant live one more day, without you in my arms,
i could nver find another like you.
Could be the times i wasnt there.
And all the nights we didnt share, and now I'm lost,
lost forever.

marini revealed @ 7:19 AM

Me

DEEDEEMARINISUHERMANYIWEN
ex-sjcian
TP interior design
zeroseven
01101988
18
a model want to be
DEGREE IN NUA-STER MAJOR IN SLACKING

MY WISHLIST

that denim skirt from diesel.
gucci envy me perfume.
hugo boss perfume.
THAT ORANGE adidas jacket.
a new pair of sneakers.
a new pair of betulas.
that ed hardy geisha cap.
more and more polo tee.
more and more skirts.
more and more jeans.
more and more handbag.
MONEY [KA-CHING!].
a new bikini.
a new watch.
heels.
more beaded necklace.
more earrings.
a new hairstyle.
ROSES AND BALLOONS.
trust and freedom.
unselfish love.
bigger eyes.
more friends.
grow closer to God.
outshine the rest in class.
draw better please.
LOOKS.
LOSE WEIGHT!