DEE DEE;

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
Eyes can be blinded
That when the lights are off something's killing me
I know it seems like people care
When they say goodbye
Cause they're always around me
But when the day is done,everybody runs
Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
When the show is over
And it's empty everywhere
It's hard to face going back alone
So I walk around the city
Anything, anything to clear my head
I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home
It may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing
When the ride that you've been on
That you're coming off
Leaves you feeling lost
Is anybody out there
Does anyobdy see
That sometimes loneliness is a part of me

Monday, December 06, 2004

here was what i took from ian's blog:

you had been through so much pain
torn between your family and your love
walking on the shaky path
hoping one day you'd be delivered

now you are miles away
from the person who told you to go away
feeling so lonely on your side
maybe you have cried, i know it hurts inside

you put on a mask everywhere you go
putting on your smiles so everyone won't know
that beneath the facade, is a broken girl
who feels lost and forgotten in this broken world

you don't know what's going on anymore
not even sure why you can't let go
in just thirty days he has gone away
and it makes you weaker everyday

what used to captivate you
seemed so blind now in your eyes
still so stuck and lost
can't forget the life he left behind

there are people who care..

it was meant for me.
thank you ian.
thank you for understanding,
though you have not exactly been through what i have.
thank you for understanding me in every situation i am in.

beryl, peishan, narene:
thank you for being there for me.
you guys know how exactly i feel
because you guys have been through what i have.
so, thank you.((:

gerald:
i know you havent been through what i have.
but you would do anything just to make me smile.
wont you. thank you very much.
and i miss you dumb jokes. haha.

marini revealed @ 7:25 PM

Me

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MY WISHLIST

that denim skirt from diesel.
gucci envy me perfume.
hugo boss perfume.
THAT ORANGE adidas jacket.
a new pair of sneakers.
a new pair of betulas.
that ed hardy geisha cap.
more and more polo tee.
more and more skirts.
more and more jeans.
more and more handbag.
MONEY [KA-CHING!].
a new bikini.
a new watch.
heels.
more beaded necklace.
more earrings.
a new hairstyle.
ROSES AND BALLOONS.
trust and freedom.
unselfish love.
bigger eyes.
more friends.
grow closer to God.
outshine the rest in class.
draw better please.
LOOKS.
LOSE WEIGHT!