DEE DEE;

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
Eyes can be blinded
That when the lights are off something's killing me
I know it seems like people care
When they say goodbye
Cause they're always around me
But when the day is done,everybody runs
Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
When the show is over
And it's empty everywhere
It's hard to face going back alone
So I walk around the city
Anything, anything to clear my head
I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home
It may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing
When the ride that you've been on
That you're coming off
Leaves you feeling lost
Is anybody out there
Does anyobdy see
That sometimes loneliness is a part of me

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

i dont feel like blogging because i have so many things to say but i either forgot what i want to say or dont know where to begin. anyway, sports day for us today. i was cheerleading. ((: my leg was all shaky when i was on the track. i felt like peeing in my pants. i guess i didnt do that well because i was so freaking scared i didnt dare look up to face the audience. i am not scared because i will forget my moves but because of the fact that i am wearing the shortest skirt that i have worn alive and actually dancing and jumping with it. i was so scared la. i thought we all screwed up because yellow and red was really good. we predicted red would win and we will either be third or last since yellow was just so fantabulous with their outfit and all. but heh, it was just our luck. we got second position. red was first obvious. but i was satisfied enough with second. after cheerleadig, i was more relaxed. and so relaxed that i got bored. i started going around looking for people's face and hand so that i can paint on it.

common test is over. and i think i screw up this time la. so far i have only one A1 can. I AM SO ANGRY WITH MYSELF LA. i got only like 14.5/25 for biology can. i thought i could have scored like an A1 for my sciences. BIO just had to pull my physics marks down. I AM SO SAD OK. you tell me how to be top scorer like that? but oh, i PASSED chinese. heh. 25.5 ok. i am so proud of myself. i got 19/25 for phsics. second highest in class. highest was 20. i begged mr.chang for one mark he die die also dont want to give me. i wrote 3.03 for the answer he dont accept.he die die also want a 3 walao. 3.03 round off also 3 what he is so damn kiam siap i tell you.

anyway, HBFF came back again last week. this time driving a car ok. walao. want to how high class. car ok. i didnt know it was her car at first till i saw her sitting on the driver seat driving the car off. dont know steal from wear come one la. haha.

oh and yes, radio is getting better la. playing all the nice songs, all i like please. and yes that natalie song is damn meanigful please.
here is how it went:
Ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same ohh baby, nooo
When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go
I just broke down
Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
Cuz the feeling that I feel within
No other man would ever make me feel so right
Its nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me
I miss the way you hold me tight
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything
Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby
Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you its been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat
Every time we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me
And you love me I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you I'll put it down be the woman for you
I'm falling so deep for you crazy over for you
I`m calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?
It's true and no fronting
Its you and no other i can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down

oh oh oh and how can i forget? jay's gui ji has been on for quite sometimes already and i know how to sing the song. but i never knew what the lyrics meant ok. till last weak only la. when gerald and tilynn told me what the song meant, my jaw dropped ok. i went home, searched for my cd and played the song, this time carefully listening to the lyrics. i just slumped into my bed. haha. i feel like an asshole knowing how to sing the song but dont know that the song is so fucking meanighful la. x(

MANY THINGS HAPPEN LATELY LA. I HATE EDB PLEASE. YUCKS PLEASE.
i've not heard from you for a very long time. and i miss you(just as a friend.), well if you like me to put it this way.

marini revealed @ 11:19 PM

Me

DEEDEEMARINISUHERMANYIWEN
ex-sjcian
TP interior design
zeroseven
01101988
18
a model want to be
DEGREE IN NUA-STER MAJOR IN SLACKING

MY WISHLIST

that denim skirt from diesel.
gucci envy me perfume.
hugo boss perfume.
THAT ORANGE adidas jacket.
a new pair of sneakers.
a new pair of betulas.
that ed hardy geisha cap.
more and more polo tee.
more and more skirts.
more and more jeans.
more and more handbag.
MONEY [KA-CHING!].
a new bikini.
a new watch.
heels.
more beaded necklace.
more earrings.
a new hairstyle.
ROSES AND BALLOONS.
trust and freedom.
unselfish love.
bigger eyes.
more friends.
grow closer to God.
outshine the rest in class.
draw better please.
LOOKS.
LOSE WEIGHT!