DEE DEE;

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
Eyes can be blinded
That when the lights are off something's killing me
I know it seems like people care
When they say goodbye
Cause they're always around me
But when the day is done,everybody runs
Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
When the show is over
And it's empty everywhere
It's hard to face going back alone
So I walk around the city
Anything, anything to clear my head
I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home
It may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing
When the ride that you've been on
That you're coming off
Leaves you feeling lost
Is anybody out there
Does anyobdy see
That sometimes loneliness is a part of me

Saturday, April 09, 2005

i havent been updating for a very long time. my blog has been real stagnant. so yes, i shall ass life to it. firsty, thank you NARENE for dropping by, i thought you never bothered to come. haha. and secondly, shock chen, no its not dead. see i added life to it. thirdly, peishan, I MISS YOU SO FUCKING MUCH. and forthly, hello beryl (x

ok, so my life has been revovling around books this few weeks. i have been staying back in school till 5 everyday to study. i am determined to do well for o's. many has been encouraging me to persue my dreams. to go into ACJC. i dont know la. contradicting please all these. discussed with mom. she shay she would prefer me to go overseas. better choices there. but she says she will support me no matter what. the problem now is that i am afraid to make the wrong choice now and regret it later on. i have had enough with my life revolving around regrets la. i want to make the right choice for the first time in my life. i dont know. deep thinking for me these few days. to stay or not to stay? ACJC or UCLA? both sounds appealing. i dont know la. stay with friends here or make new friends there? CONTRADICTING.

i guess my life is more stable right now. no more drowning myself in sorrows and self pity. i guess i have thought it over la. life has to go on. with or without that special thing. i'm only 17 pleanty of time for that. i am just glad that was once mine. been there done that. i thought i will never make it, but hey, look at me now. (x
you're wrong and i'm strong, i'm afraid i am moving on.

marini revealed @ 4:52 AM

Me

DEEDEEMARINISUHERMANYIWEN
ex-sjcian
TP interior design
zeroseven
01101988
18
a model want to be
DEGREE IN NUA-STER MAJOR IN SLACKING

MY WISHLIST

that denim skirt from diesel.
gucci envy me perfume.
hugo boss perfume.
THAT ORANGE adidas jacket.
a new pair of sneakers.
a new pair of betulas.
that ed hardy geisha cap.
more and more polo tee.
more and more skirts.
more and more jeans.
more and more handbag.
MONEY [KA-CHING!].
a new bikini.
a new watch.
heels.
more beaded necklace.
more earrings.
a new hairstyle.
ROSES AND BALLOONS.
trust and freedom.
unselfish love.
bigger eyes.
more friends.
grow closer to God.
outshine the rest in class.
draw better please.
LOOKS.
LOSE WEIGHT!