DEE DEE;

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
Eyes can be blinded
That when the lights are off something's killing me
I know it seems like people care
When they say goodbye
Cause they're always around me
But when the day is done,everybody runs
Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
When the show is over
And it's empty everywhere
It's hard to face going back alone
So I walk around the city
Anything, anything to clear my head
I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home
It may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing
When the ride that you've been on
That you're coming off
Leaves you feeling lost
Is anybody out there
Does anyobdy see
That sometimes loneliness is a part of me

Sunday, June 12, 2005

I caught monster-in-law last friday. It was good, i guess. Pretty hilarious. The show does have some resemblance. But that was so long ago. I am back in indonesia again. This just means one thing. I will be rotting my ass off. I was doing some thinking. And I do realise there is no one whom I can really turn to. I mean, sure there are people who knows whats going on. But just pieces here and there. And those who really knows, just tells me the same thing over and over again. I know where I exactly stand. But really, is there anything much I can do? I know more or less what's going on in your life. But there is this big piece of information I know I am missing out. Do I really want to know whats really going on between *** *** ********? Part of me is urging to know. But part of me is afraid of the outcome. I am seriously contradicting myself. Maybe, it'll be good that at least I know, but then again, maybe its better to be kept in the dark. why and how come *** **** *** so much? What is it that you *** in *** that you ***'* *** in **? Have I not showed *** enough **** *** ****? Alright, maybe its better if things are the way it is now. I mean, even if I dont want things to be the way it is now, is there really anything I can do to change it? Well, unfortunately, not.

I caught a morning flight today. I came back in school uniform. As usual. Mr.Tan laughed at me today. He was saying I pay air ticket fares like I pay for bus fare. He is so nonsense I tell you. And geraldine being her irritating self, just wont stop irritating me during a-maths lesson. Oh, I got mad in class talking about something, and I ended drawing all over tilynn's paper. Haha. So now tilynn has only one small corner to do all her a-maths working. Its ok, I am sure, she understands.

**- I shopped already la. And I am freaking broke ok. With all the rusty stuffs i got, I think I must as well open an outlet here and sell all my things away. Haha. You just wait and see, I'll get an outlet here soon, and then you can be the overall in charge. (:

skye-I am doing fine. I guess. Haha. Aye, so now you got a problem with me catching national treasure way after you la. Now, you want to like that show off already la sarah hoe. Yes, there are like a million and one things I want to get. Including a green i-pod mini. (: Do you want to get it for me? Haha.

marini revealed @ 10:26 PM

Me

DEEDEEMARINISUHERMANYIWEN
ex-sjcian
TP interior design
zeroseven
01101988
18
a model want to be
DEGREE IN NUA-STER MAJOR IN SLACKING

MY WISHLIST

that denim skirt from diesel.
gucci envy me perfume.
hugo boss perfume.
THAT ORANGE adidas jacket.
a new pair of sneakers.
a new pair of betulas.
that ed hardy geisha cap.
more and more polo tee.
more and more skirts.
more and more jeans.
more and more handbag.
MONEY [KA-CHING!].
a new bikini.
a new watch.
heels.
more beaded necklace.
more earrings.
a new hairstyle.
ROSES AND BALLOONS.
trust and freedom.
unselfish love.
bigger eyes.
more friends.
grow closer to God.
outshine the rest in class.
draw better please.
LOOKS.
LOSE WEIGHT!