DEE DEE;

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
Eyes can be blinded
That when the lights are off something's killing me
I know it seems like people care
When they say goodbye
Cause they're always around me
But when the day is done,everybody runs
Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
When the show is over
And it's empty everywhere
It's hard to face going back alone
So I walk around the city
Anything, anything to clear my head
I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home
It may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing
When the ride that you've been on
That you're coming off
Leaves you feeling lost
Is anybody out there
Does anyobdy see
That sometimes loneliness is a part of me

Thursday, November 17, 2005

martini-i: tsk. you dont sick la ok. you dont think i dont know loh. you were secretly happy when i got out of the room. i would have stayed out longer if mom didnt come home so early. and how can you wet her socks and shoes? i ask you send her home leh, not bully her. you nehnhepok la.

lola: I DONT WANT TO BE MRS._ _ _ _ _ i want to be mrs something else but looks like its not quite possible anymore. well, i might have the chance if i do confess, but obviously i wouldnt dare and anyway, that idiot already has someone else in mind.

peishan: yes, i dont like friendster too. there shouldnt have to be any friendster then people wont be able to upload pictures, update their profile and blah blah blah. ugh.

a maths paper is finally over. i am quite happy with my performance la. A1.. here i come. the only two subjects i am confident of getting A1 are like e and a maths. the rest are gone case ok. especially english. what kind of stupid vocab was that. history is tommorow la, and what am i doing online now? i dont know. i am studying only china and russia. so if these two dont come out, i am just going to kill myself.

i dont like the way things are now. you were always there when i needed you last time. blame me for being stupid the last time to push you away. you gave me hope to love and told me that everyone had their first times and will pull through soon. you were always there to give me words of encouragement whenever i am down. you were just there in my darkest moment. but where are you now? i like the way you used to just drop by a message just to make sure i am ok. i guess i took things for granted and thought that you would always be there. now that you're gone, i feel lost.

unconsciously i fell for you. now that you're gone, i feel something's missing.

looks like i dont learn from my mistakes. after having such a hard fall the last time, i just had to repeat the same mistake. that opportunity was just right infront me, but i blew it.

IS IT ALL TOO LATE NOW TO TELL YOU HOW I FEEL?

marini revealed @ 11:45 AM

Me

DEEDEEMARINISUHERMANYIWEN
ex-sjcian
TP interior design
zeroseven
01101988
18
a model want to be
DEGREE IN NUA-STER MAJOR IN SLACKING

MY WISHLIST

that denim skirt from diesel.
gucci envy me perfume.
hugo boss perfume.
THAT ORANGE adidas jacket.
a new pair of sneakers.
a new pair of betulas.
that ed hardy geisha cap.
more and more polo tee.
more and more skirts.
more and more jeans.
more and more handbag.
MONEY [KA-CHING!].
a new bikini.
a new watch.
heels.
more beaded necklace.
more earrings.
a new hairstyle.
ROSES AND BALLOONS.
trust and freedom.
unselfish love.
bigger eyes.
more friends.
grow closer to God.
outshine the rest in class.
draw better please.
LOOKS.
LOSE WEIGHT!