DEE DEE;

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
Eyes can be blinded
That when the lights are off something's killing me
I know it seems like people care
When they say goodbye
Cause they're always around me
But when the day is done,everybody runs
Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
When the show is over
And it's empty everywhere
It's hard to face going back alone
So I walk around the city
Anything, anything to clear my head
I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home
It may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing
When the ride that you've been on
That you're coming off
Leaves you feeling lost
Is anybody out there
Does anyobdy see
That sometimes loneliness is a part of me

Thursday, December 01, 2005

narene: aye, i am not pang seh queen ok. haha. and remember you owe me one big packet of colourful, chewy, juicy gummy bear. haha. and i want them to come in many many pictures ok small, stick boy ( that'll fly to mars when the wind comes along.) haha. yay, I CAN'T WAIT FOR THURSDAY. gummy bear, here i come!

xue*: haha, thank you. (= you look great yourself. i guess, that night was just my dream come true.

i hate it when my womenly days are coming. it will always get me into my foul mood and always think of things i dont wanna think about. i was handling everything SO well, SO SO well, a few weeks ago. but i dont know, i seem to be back to the square ones now. part of me want to let you go so badly, but part of me just cant bare to do it. i dont know whats happening to me, really. it must be the boredom thats doing all these injustice to me.

i dont want to go back to indonesia. i dont want to. because i know if i go back there, i will lose touch with everything here. and i hate it. i will miss you. ( i am talking nonsense. even if i am in singapore, i will still miss you the same because i get to see you only once in a PURPLE moon.)

like i said, in life, there is no such thing as JUST NICE. for example in indonesia, you're either VERY rich, or VERY poor. you can never find someone whose in the middle. its just the same in life. you're either REALLY lucky and get some things others dont get or be REALLY unlucky. but one thing i learn, i got to live with it. because thats part and parcel of life. i guess i should just start counting my blessings instead of living in self pity.

seriously, i will pay anyone who can help me get out of my situation right now.

anyway, i am going back on dec 10th and thats in less than 10 days time. what will i be doing when i go back there? eat and sleep eat and sleep, and oh not forgetting, grow fat and rot!! hahaha. i am flying to JAPAN on dec 19th. TOKYO DISNEYLAND, here i come! i've been to LA disneyland, PARIS disneyland, and i am going to TOKYO disneyland, my next target will be DISNEYWORLD in florida. haha. my dream WILL come true.

*will you miss me when i am gone?

marini revealed @ 11:55 PM

Me

DEEDEEMARINISUHERMANYIWEN
ex-sjcian
TP interior design
zeroseven
01101988
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a model want to be
DEGREE IN NUA-STER MAJOR IN SLACKING

MY WISHLIST

that denim skirt from diesel.
gucci envy me perfume.
hugo boss perfume.
THAT ORANGE adidas jacket.
a new pair of sneakers.
a new pair of betulas.
that ed hardy geisha cap.
more and more polo tee.
more and more skirts.
more and more jeans.
more and more handbag.
MONEY [KA-CHING!].
a new bikini.
a new watch.
heels.
more beaded necklace.
more earrings.
a new hairstyle.
ROSES AND BALLOONS.
trust and freedom.
unselfish love.
bigger eyes.
more friends.
grow closer to God.
outshine the rest in class.
draw better please.
LOOKS.
LOSE WEIGHT!