DEE DEE;

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
Eyes can be blinded
That when the lights are off something's killing me
I know it seems like people care
When they say goodbye
Cause they're always around me
But when the day is done,everybody runs
Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
When the show is over
And it's empty everywhere
It's hard to face going back alone
So I walk around the city
Anything, anything to clear my head
I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home
It may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing
When the ride that you've been on
That you're coming off
Leaves you feeling lost
Is anybody out there
Does anyobdy see
That sometimes loneliness is a part of me

Monday, December 12, 2005

sometimes, i feel you do things without thinking how i would feel. i do hope you realise i am a human, and i do have feelings. and evrybody has their own limits. i plucked up so much courage hoping to get something back in return, but it seems that things were better if i chose not to say anything. its crazy, cause i dont even know what you are exactly thinking, and honestly, it hurts. many says i give up too easily. perhaps i do, but what other choice do i have when i dont even know where i'm heading?

i am back in indonesia. and its really boring here. its ok. i am flying back soon during the weekends. i was suppose to fly back on sunday but mom changed it to saturday. thats good. so it means i can go church on sunday! OH YAY! then heading to japan on the 19th. night flight. 11 p.m ( WYBSMO?) christmas will be in japan. i hope i'll be enjoying myself. what am i thinking? of course i will.

the stupid computer is really slow and i had to ask some guy to come over and re-format everything. and everything in my folder IS GONE! i had to re-download msn. and its taking ages to load with the snail moving internet connection.

anyway, martin-i, I MISS YOU! ( i dont care if you're too busy missing your girlfriend who is away at the moment too.) i have so many things to say to you. the good and the bad. well, mostly the bad. i have many things to complain la. i am not feeling too good right now. cause i saw something i shouldn't have seen. ( i think) =( =( =( i need your comfort.

***, i miss you too la! ( i dont think you'll come here to read my blog anyway, but still..) i bet you're thinking of me! haha. but i know you think of me only when you want something from me what right? MOOKS MOOKS MOOKS. if not, I WILL BE LONG LONG FORGOTTEN LOH. but still, do take care of yourself la. another two more weeks, you'll have your wish soon, and by then, i'll learn to forge your signature. and watch, i'll swipe swipe swipe. MUAHAHA. i'll get my paul smith perfume, denim jacket. diesel's denim skirt. ( oh my dream come true.) =D

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marini revealed @ 6:38 AM

Me

DEEDEEMARINISUHERMANYIWEN
ex-sjcian
TP interior design
zeroseven
01101988
18
a model want to be
DEGREE IN NUA-STER MAJOR IN SLACKING

MY WISHLIST

that denim skirt from diesel.
gucci envy me perfume.
hugo boss perfume.
THAT ORANGE adidas jacket.
a new pair of sneakers.
a new pair of betulas.
that ed hardy geisha cap.
more and more polo tee.
more and more skirts.
more and more jeans.
more and more handbag.
MONEY [KA-CHING!].
a new bikini.
a new watch.
heels.
more beaded necklace.
more earrings.
a new hairstyle.
ROSES AND BALLOONS.
trust and freedom.
unselfish love.
bigger eyes.
more friends.
grow closer to God.
outshine the rest in class.
draw better please.
LOOKS.
LOSE WEIGHT!