DEE DEE;

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
Eyes can be blinded
That when the lights are off something's killing me
I know it seems like people care
When they say goodbye
Cause they're always around me
But when the day is done,everybody runs
Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
When the show is over
And it's empty everywhere
It's hard to face going back alone
So I walk around the city
Anything, anything to clear my head
I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home
It may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing
When the ride that you've been on
That you're coming off
Leaves you feeling lost
Is anybody out there
Does anyobdy see
That sometimes loneliness is a part of me

Thursday, January 05, 2006

sean: haha. happy new year to you too! and the pencil box is something i really like currently. (=

sherina: haha. i agree with you. that paris hilton perfume smells great. haha. you've got one yourself?

lewis: BOO you too! thanks for commenting anyway.

today was spent watching dvd after dvd. oh no, i cant continue on like this. i am getting lazier and lazier. and its really band. and last night, someone managed to convince me. I AM FAT! i got to lose some weight la please. and that someone make me realise i have real odd body shape too. but thats ok, AT LEAST I CAN FIT INTO POLO TEE NICELY. =D

give me the chance to show you what i am made of, not to judge me of face value or by the impressions that you've formed. i'm withdrawing as much as i want to pour my being out to you.

emotion is something i have yet to learn to take control of. sometimes being persistent may result to a worse effect than if u had just let go and pursue other goals. so, as hard and as painful as it may be, i'll learn to let go off certain things that i believe i could have done but i'll be stronger than ever to pursue my new goals.

i've been hiding behind my gifts
i give until it starts to rip
the skin is torn where i begin
the thread is worn and might give in
underneath it all i feel the eyes
of all the things that i despise
can i fight them off with sticks and stones?
can i fight them off alone?
now i'm thinking about my own advice
if i could soothe myself it might be nice
calling names ain't the same no more
took a look and locked that door
memories and cold hard facts
watched it all come rushing back
all the times i told you what to do
all the times i thought i knew

marini revealed @ 6:38 AM

Me

DEEDEEMARINISUHERMANYIWEN
ex-sjcian
TP interior design
zeroseven
01101988
18
a model want to be
DEGREE IN NUA-STER MAJOR IN SLACKING

MY WISHLIST

that denim skirt from diesel.
gucci envy me perfume.
hugo boss perfume.
THAT ORANGE adidas jacket.
a new pair of sneakers.
a new pair of betulas.
that ed hardy geisha cap.
more and more polo tee.
more and more skirts.
more and more jeans.
more and more handbag.
MONEY [KA-CHING!].
a new bikini.
a new watch.
heels.
more beaded necklace.
more earrings.
a new hairstyle.
ROSES AND BALLOONS.
trust and freedom.
unselfish love.
bigger eyes.
more friends.
grow closer to God.
outshine the rest in class.
draw better please.
LOOKS.
LOSE WEIGHT!